I guess I am at a low point...

Don't get me wrong, I am happy that I am pregnant. Although sometimes it's hard to grasp that this is really happening to me, and not of excitement but i guess nervousness. I guess its a number of things making me feel this way. My brother (which i havent talked to in years!) is like happy that i am pregnant not because he is happy for me, but because I got mad at him and said he was dumb to get 2 girls pregnant at the age of 16 at the same time! now he is 31 and is like "haha, she always picked on me now its her turn" but i really dont think 21 and having a kid is all that young these days. Maybe it is. Then my older sister is trying so hard to have a kid, and cant, and i dont know why I was blessed with this. I dont get why a lot of amazing people are losing their kids. I know i know, god has plans for us all, but sometimes thats just not helpful and not what i want to hear...But everyone else is super happy for me, but i hate the fact that I cant be that happy about it. Maybe im just in a depressed mood right now, i dunno...anyone else feel/felt thatt way? 

I have a cousin that I'm really close too, but I can't talk about my pregnancy with her. she has been trying for YEARS to have a baby and can't. So I feel you there. 21 is younger than some, but I was 19 when I found out I was pregnant with my first. It wasn't exactly planned, but I had been married for a year, so it wasn't that big of a shock. I'm 23 now, and pregnant with my second. I hope you get to feeling better!

Quoting Jampaulham:“ I have a cousin that I'm really close too, but I can't talk about my pregnancy with her. she has been ... [snip!] ... for a year, so it wasn't that big of a shock. I'm 23 now, and pregnant with my second. I hope you get to feeling better!”

thanks so much  

Quoting Ashlyn's Mommy:“ Don't get me wrong, I am happy that I am pregnant. Although sometimes it's hard to grasp that this is ... [snip!] ... I cant be that happy about it. Maybe im just in a depressed mood right now, i dunno...anyone else feel/felt thatt way? ”

I think a lot of it, too, is that it's a lot to get your head around! The fact that the wiggly thing making you feel all fat is a baby, that once born it's going to be a BABY and need you to care for it and love it. That's such a huge, momentus, life-changing thing and you're supposed to be excited, even though you don't really know whats coming or what to expect? And even though I'm happy about the pregnancy there's a large part of me that can't get excited because the whole idea just seems so weird, so surreal, that I still almost can't believe it.

Try not to feel too bad about your sister. Just think about all the idiot 15-yo's, the drug addicts, the women who get raped and get pregnant- all of these people who didn't want to/ shouldn't be pregnant- all of this happens while your sister can't get pregnant no matter how much she wants to. At least you and your sister can take comfort in the fact that your baby will be well loved.

21- nope, not so young.
Really, it doesn't matter what age you get pregnant. SOMEONE will come after you saying you're too young or too old or just "not ready" for whatever reason.

Quoting Astraia:“ I think a lot of it, too, is that it's a lot to get your head around! The fact that the wiggly thing ... [snip!] ... age you get pregnant. SOMEONE will come after you saying you're too young or too old or just "not ready" for whatever reason.”

thanks, its good to know ppl out there understand