Depressed :(

I gave birth to a stillborn baby on July 2nd, 2008 due to complications at 23 weeks. I had a hemorrage when I was 19 weeks kept bleeding which caused premature rupture of membranes at 23 weeks.

I am slipping into a deep depression ... everything seems to be going wrong, and I can't help but feel it's all my fault. I have much guilt over the loss of my daughter ... I wonder if it was something I did or didn't do. I tried everything tho. I had the perfect pregnancy up until the 19th week - then out of the blue I hemorraged. No cramping no warning signs at all. I was constantly at the doctors because the bleeding wasn't light ... figured w/all the medical technology there should have been something they could do ... but they could never even tell me why I was bleeding or why I hemorraged. Would go to the hospital and they would just release me ... I just don't get it.

My heart is broken over the loss of my little girl and now I have a huge hole in my heart that will never be filled. I know time heals all wounds ... but this wound is deep and it hurts so bad.  

I don't know ... maybe I just need to vent ... I'm so confused ... and I just don't understand ...

I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my prayers.

I am so sorry for your loss.
It may be a good idea to talk with your doctor about options available for treating depression. It doesn't necessarily mean medication, although that is certainly an option. You may need a little counciling to try to cope with what has happened.

Big hugs to you.

I am so sorry for your loss. You need time to grieve. It hasn't been that long ago that you lost your angel. Getting back into everyday normal activities will help you. But it's always easier said than done.The pain doesn't lessen, you just learn how to cope with it over time. Talk about it with people close to you andcry until you can't cry anymore.

Im so sorry momma! Loosing a child has to be the hardest thing in life.. I cant seem to hold onto my pregnancies either.. =(

  I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending you comforting energies

I lost my baby at 31 weeks on July 26th Due to the doctors. I am also finding I am depressed but I hide it. The doctors had the nerve to call and ask if I have found counsoling.WTF!!!! If you need to talk let me know we can cry and bitch together. Keep your head up .

Quoting RIP My baby girl Devon An:“ I lost my baby at 31 weeks on July 26th Due to the doctors. I am also finding I am depressed but I hide ... [snip!] ... and ask if I have found counsoling.WTF!!!! If you need to talk let me know we can cry and bitch together. Keep your head up .”

I am so sorry for the loss of you little girl, she's beautiful! Especially the circumstance in which you lost her ... I hate doctors myself - due to their negligence Jessica lost her life also.

I am sorry you are depressed too (feel free to PM me any time if you need to talk) Yeh that is some nerve to call and ask if you found counciling - the doctors here didn't even care enough to do that.   I just shake my head cuz i swear technology has made doctors stupid. I kinda felt like my OB/GYN had an assembly line. She might as well have just put me on a conveyor belt and said, "Spread em!"

Me, lately I have been in a low - I cry pretty much all the time - I have nightmares about the delivery. (She was breech - so when I wasn't fully dialated her bottom half came out but her head was still stuck ... and it took an addl hour for head to come out ... so I had her half way in half way out) She is my first, so I didn't really know what to expect. I think the numbness wore off and now I'm dealing with the emotions that come with loosing her.

You are very strong to be able to keep a brave front up for your girls ... I try but I break down and cry. My heart goes out to you ... I know how you are feeling - nothing can take the heart break away!!! (I am glad to hear you have a case against the doctor ...them not listening was just WRONG!!)

My heart goes out to you. I wish I could take the pain away from you.