tattoo idea

i wanna get on the inside of my wrist either 'trist' or 'jeg elsker deg' with wings on the side  the first one means 'sorry' then second 'i love you' i might get both because i feel both. just thinking outloud.

I'm just wondering why you would want to get sorry on your wrist, is there a story behind it? the I love you idea is cute though

Quoting *Gabriels Mommy*:“ I'm just wondering why you would want to get sorry on your wrist, is there a story behind it? the I love you idea is cute though”

same question

i would get sorry on my left wrist for a couple reasons, mostly sorry for having a miscarriage i know what most everyone would say its not my fault, but it wont change that i know it is that im somehow flawed or did something wrong for that im sorry. im sorry for not being a better person and sorry for not being stronger. im sorry for alot of mistakes ive made that i wont ever let go. the reason it would HAVE to be on the left wrist is because of a saying i heard once that your left hand is your hand of hate. 

I've miss carried also and it was extremely hard for me to deal with, I went through alot of therapy for it. To be honest, 'I'm sorry' seems to have so many negative memories tied with it so. Also all the things that have happened to you or you have done that you are sorry about have only made you stronger. I would get 'strength' or something like that. It is a bit more positive and everything you look at it it will remind you how strong you are to have made it through all of those experienfes AND it will remind you to stay strong

Ohhhhh, I like that idea. Sorry about your loss though mama.

Quoting *Gabriels Mommy*:“ I've miss carried also and it was extremely hard for me to deal with, I went through alot of therapy ... [snip!] ... it it will remind you how strong you are to have made it through all of those experienfes AND it will remind you to stay strong”

yeah now that I think about it that might be a better idea

hmmm... i like the ideas, other than i've never heard that about the left hand. i had my kids' dad's initials(along with barb wire)put on my left wrist after he died because it was closest to my heart, same reasoning as the wedding ring. ;-) i have just the barb wire on my right wrist. i say if it feels right to you then definitely go for it. tattoos are a wonderful way to express yourself.

ive always been in therapy but i go alot more now and take alot of meds just to feel partly human. i know i sound angsty but i dont think this will ever end. i dunno maybe i just wont let myself move on. 

I wouldn't get "I'm sorry" personally. I don't think that it would contribute well on your healing journey. What about wings on your left with "I love you" under it?

i havnt made up my mind yet im waiting for my back to finish healing. before i get another one

Quoting madelynn:“ ive always been in therapy but i go alot more now and take alot of meds just to feel partly human. i ... [snip!] ... to feel partly human. i know i sound angsty but i dont think this will ever end. i dunno maybe i just wont let myself move on.”

SO sorry for your loss. Just wanted to tell you to give yourself time. You just experienced one of the worst things a woman can go through...PLUS you are still dealing with hormones and your body trying to get back to 'normal'... whatever that is. :-) I have been on anti-depressant and anti-anxiety meds ever since I lost my first baby 5/07. I was able to go off of them when I got pregs with the second one, but after losing him I am right back on them. I used to think that being on meds full time was a crutch and that I didn't need them. I realize now that proper, doctor supervised, meds are what my brain and body needs to allow me to live my life and be as close to normal as I can get. I say again...you have gone THROUGH IT! You will never be the same person again....don't even try! Just embrace the fact that you are a mom and that changes everything. You will never "move on" from missing that little one, but the pain will get easier to bear. Don't fall into the trap of thinking that just because no one else is talking about it that you should pretend it never happened. Find someone you can talk to (I know you said you're in therapy, that's good), and vent when you need to. Feel free to PM me.

P.S. I am getting a tat with baby footprints with my boys' names and birth dates. Just my idea. :-)

yeah im on a rediculous about of meds. 1200 mg of trileptal 300 welbutrin 15 mg of ambien cr (yes i know its more the legal dose but nothing makes me sleep) and 10 mg of klonopin .5 mg xanax 
 i just want them to give me something i wont care that im a failure as a human. as much as so many people would love to believe meds dont just turn peoples emotions off. because if theirs a pill that can make me stop feeling anything i would seriously love to take it.