What A Great Weekend!

My husband and I have kind of been on the rocks lately. Things between us and me and his mother and just everything... it has all kind of sucked. Ever since having Carly, I have felt completely alone and isolated - my mother is the one person I want to be with but she lives too far away. Aside from monthly visits and daily phone conversations, I never see her.

This weekend was wonderful. My husband and I did a lot of bonding and we weren't even trying or forcing things. He stayed home with me and Carly all weekend. He was sweet, he listened, he cared. Today, he actually went to church with us. AND! He enjoyed it. I felt like a family rather than the"single mom" that I often feel like. He mowed the lawn, helped me with laundry and dinner, went swimming with us, cuddled with me on the couch, and really understood where I was coming from.

Tomorrow, I'm going to get help for my PPD. I'm nervous and anxious and ready to start feeling more like myself. I'm sick of letting this take complete control of my life. I'm sick of suffering in more ways than one.

Best of all, my husband and I are getting along. He told me tonight that he thinks I am perfect and that he loves me unconditionally. He told me that he wouldn't trade his life today for anything in this world - and I felt like he really, really meant it. Brings me to tears just thinking about it.

I want things to stay just like this, forever. I hate fighting with him, I hate doubting our marriage, I hate feeling like he doesn't "get" me. I hate feeling hopeless and alone. This weekend feels like a new beginning...

And all I can do is smile.

YAY! I am glad that you decided to take control of the PPD..I know where you are coming from with the PPD. I have it really bad. (If you ever want to talk about it then please feel free to PM me)

awe yay! reading this made me smile

i feel like that alot some days   so i know were your coming from

That's great I'm really happy for you...and I think that it's awesome that you've decided to really kick that PPD in the ass....

What a great post! It made me feel better.

You shouldwrite your guy a love note or do something small and special for him to show him how much you appreciated the weekend. When you inflate a guy's ego just a little they are more likely to do it again to get that same reaction.And it makes him see that you really enjoyed the weekend, because sometimes they just don't know and you have to point it out to him. LOL

This post is so refreshing compared to all the fighting ones.

Quoting Filzens_Wife:“ That's great I'm really happy for you...and I think that it's awesome that you've decided to really kick that PPD in the ass....”

I was hoping it would go away on it's own. Another big part of me was in denial. But after seeing how it's slowing eating away at me and destroying my marriage, I realize that it's not going away on it's own... I just need help.

Quoting naofox:“ What a great post! It made me feel better. You shouldwrite your guy a love note or do something small ... [snip!] ... they just don't know and you have to point it out to him. LOL This post is so refreshing compared to all the fighting ones.”

I plan on letting him know how appreciative I am of him. Except, I only wish I had a LITTLE bit of a sex drive. I guess words and cuddling might be all he gets tonight. You're right though, inflating a guy's ego does WONDERS.

Quoting Mama Denise:“ I plan on letting him know how appreciative I am of him. Except, I only wish I had a LITTLE bit of a ... [snip!] ... a sex drive. I guess words and cuddling might be all he gets tonight. You're right though, inflating a guy's ego does WONDERS.”

Haha, it's so true.

Cuddles are just as important.  

Then again, if you don't want to do anything there is always your hand.Haha, I kid.

Aw, yay! I'm glad you had a great weekend!
My mommy lives far away, too.  
Good luck with the PPD!

Wow, good for you!!! It really made me smile and feel good to read this, I'm happy to hear a story of someone getting on the road to happy! Good luck and keep smiling 

naofox: Haha. As much as he loves any kind of sexual attention from me... once I offer, he starts getting picky.

*mommy2Aprincess*: I hate having my mom live far away. It's not even THAT far(2 hours away)... but with a small child and gas prices the way they are... it's almost impossible.

MirandaMommy: Thank you. I hope to stay on this road to happy. It's been a long time coming.