My son would be a week old tomorrow

Hi Everyone. I found this board by google search. I really need support from others that are going through the same pain. My beautiful baby boy due date was September 11th.
July 13th, I went to the ER because I could not feel my baby move. On that day, I found out my son died. I still can't believe this happened to us. I didn't have any complications during my pregnancy, not even morning sickness. One good thing is that I didn't have any baby showers yet. A large baby shower was going to be on July 19th. Our son's funeral was July 20th.
I gave birth to my beautiful son on July 17th at 10:28 am. Titus was 3 pounds and 9 oz. He was 17 1/2 inches long. I woke up this morning crying two different times.
I get angry and depressed. I am trying not to be angry at God. I am reading my bible and praying. Everyone tells me that my baby is an angel in heaven which I am happy about. He is at home where I want to be one day. I just wish he could have been here longer.
The father of Titus is really helping me. We are not married. We have been dating for almost two years. Before Titus died, there was talk that we may get married years later. Now, I don't think that will happen.
I keep thinking that my boyfriend will eventually decide to break up with me. Its just gonna be hard losing my son and now my boyfriend.
I don't want to go into depression mode.
I hope I am making sense...I probably should have waited on posting..I am just loss of words.

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I couldn't wait to hold my son and tell him all about you Lord. While in heaven, when you hold my son on your lap, will you please tell him all about me?

wowhun i am so sorry
your last sentence was beautiful

I am so sorry. It's awful that anyone would have to go through something so hard. All I can say is don't be mad at God, it wasn't His fault, turn to him instead and find strength and courage and hope. He will bless you and be with you through this time. Look forward to the day you will meet your son in heaven. He'll be waiting for you

I am so sorry for your loss, I will pray that your heart finds peace and comfort.

I am so sorry for your loss.

Omg, this is so sad. I am literally weeping with you right now. I feel for you and admire the strength and courage you have to go on. God Bless you. One day you will see your son again. He is in a place where there is no pain or heartache. You now have your very own angel watching over you. Keep your head up sweetheart.

I'm so sorry for your loss.
After reading all that, your last line really touched me. I couldn't hold it in anymore, I teared up.

Im very sorry for your loss hon  

I know you cant see him or hold him, but hes always with you... talk to him... hes listening.

:hugs:

I'm so sorry for your loss. God bless you.

Im sorry for your loss. Feel free to talk here about it as much as you want, thats the best thing to do!!
I lost my daughter at 34 weeks along. 3-15-06, It is hard, some days are easier than others.

i'm so sorry. I know your pain. I pretty much have my eyes watering right now. My baby would be 2 yrs and 3 months right now

im sooo sorry.
your closing sentence made me all watery eyed.
things will get better, eventually you have to be strong.
good luck in the future!

Aw! I am sooo sorry hun. The last sentence really brought on the tears. Keep your head up hun. Now not only do you have god watching over you, you have your precious son.

Good Bless  

Quoting DebRene:“ Hi Everyone. I found this board by google search. I really need support from others that are going through ... [snip!] ... son and tell him all about you Lord. While in heaven, when you hold my son on your lap, will you please tell him all about me?”

I'm so sorry for your lost. I will keep you in my prayers. Stay strong, Titus is sleeping with the angles now.

Im soo sorry for ur loss! We dont know why these things happen but god has a will! you and ur family will be in my prayers!!