just need to vent!

Today has been the worst day ever i started which is a bad thing cause i was really hoping i was pregnant again and then while i'm in pain from super bad cramps and hurt cause i'm not pregnant. Well i will update you me and my b/f live with his mom and 2 sisters we have been trying to save to get our own place cause all my b/f and his mom and sisters do is fight and it's just a very stressful situation they don't clean up after themselves or help clean period nobody is working but my b/f his mom quit her job 2 months ago and hasn't even been trying to find another one so they go off all day goofing around doing nothing but wasting gas which i mean i'm glad there out of the house but i get stuck cooking, all the cleaning, and everything else that needs to be done in the house. We buy all the grocery's it's just not a good situtaion but they always tell me they love me i'm part of the family you know no matter what happens between them and my b/f well i found out today how much of a lie that is his sister has this notebook she writes in but when she writes about you she leaves it out for you to read and she told me she does that so people know how she feels well me and her have never gotten into it i thought we got along pretty well givin the circumstances of me doing EVERYTHING in the house. But she wrote that she wants me and my b/f to live on the streets and that i changed her brother and she wants her brother back and all this bad stuff about me . I mean it literally made me cry. I don't know how i can continue living here they just left they thought i was sleeping and his mom was talking about me too... how can we do so much for them and they be so hateful to me i'd actually rather live on the streets right now.
Oh and did i mention the sisters steal my clothes but we still make sure they have what they need yea i have got to get out of this house.. i don't know what to do we don't have no money saved cause everybit of it goes to her bills and grocery's

I can't believe how rude they were they even poured the last of the tea down the drain so i wouldn't have anything to drink. You would think they were 1st graders.

I just feel like crying i just wish i could be with my son far far away

Quoting R.I.P MY SWEET BABY BOY:“ Today has been the worst day ever i started which is a bad thing cause i was really hoping i was pregnant ... [snip!] ... to drink. You would think they were 1st graders. I just feel like crying i just wish i could be with my son far far away”

They sound very rude and lazy. You and your boyfriend are the only ones paying bills. And you clean , and cook and even make sure they have food on the table. I think your boyfriend should have sit down with his sisters and mom and explain to them its not right to disrepect you like that all. And that they need to cut it out. Im sorry but i dont understand how you havent gone off on them yourselfs. I also think your boyfriend should explain to his mom that you will only pay for half the bills, and ONLY buy food for you and him. They dont seem to apperiate anything so..why even do it anymore. It will teach them a lesson. Also if you do that you will be able to start saving up money and be able to move out. Think about it. the mom is going to have to get a job sooner or later because im assuming you wont be there all of your lives supporting them.

As for the sisters journal. she has a right to state what she thinks but... she has no vaild reason for it and if she was mature she would just tell you what she thinks to your face. I mean really its immature of her just to leave it out like that.

Yea he told her last night that he can't keep paying all her bills cause our dog just had puppies and she was all griping about when they get bigger runnin around the house and my b/f said it wouldn't be a problem if you would get a job and she said what does me working have to do with the puppies running around? He said because i want us to get our own place and i've told you that but everytime i get paid it's pay this pay that this is about to get shut off... She said well that's fine you can move out don't pay anything else after you pay the light bill........ but she will go back on that.. Just like sunday we always go get grocery's and with his sisters being teenagers and one of them is always at her b/f's for like a week or2 at the time he said who is all gonna be here so i know how much food to buy and she said oh it's just gonna be you 2 becasue the one was staying at her b/f's all week and i'm gonna be staying gone all week to babysit he needs me to stay 24/7 to watch her and he asked her like 50 million times are you sure it's just gonna be us here you can't come back in the middle of the week when we don't have enough grocerys' and she said yea i'm sure.. but they came back and then yesterday she went and picked up her other daughter too after everybody said they would be gone all week .

And i agree she has a right to state her feelings but she shouldn't put them out there for me to see especially when i have done nothing but be good to her

Damn talk about a rock and a hard place. Stop doing so much for them they are grown people and need to take responsibility. You are there to get on your feet and you need to not let anyone break you.Maybe its agood thing you are not prego yet because of you circumstances. Sit down and figure out your money sit and exactly how much you are gonna give them and how much to spend on food and the rest save it. Stop giving them the way to walk all over you. And so what if his little sister has something to say don't cry over what a child says. And obviously she is because she is not woman enough to say anything to your face. He chose you and you two are together and walking your own path .Sorry this post is going up so late I am at work and my phone keeps ringing

thanks it's just hard we try to put our foot down he told her he is not doing anything else but buy grocerys' and i mean i ain't gonna eat in front of them when they are hungry it's not the kids fault there mom is depending on my b/f it is so frustrating. And that's not the only reason i cried i mean i still am dealing with the loss of my son. And it's like they rub there other sisters pregnancy in my facel, and as hard as i try not to let there stupid stuff get to me it's hard because i'm very emotional and sensitive right now and they told me they love me like family then why aren't they being there for me like family after i clean and everything and my b/f is keeping food on there plates and keeping them with electicity i just hate how ungrateful they are. That's like i lost a paper of mine for my school and his mom got all mad at me cause i lost my own paper geeze it's my freakin paper i am really thinkin bout tellin my b/f when he gets home he can stay here but i just can't do it anymore