I'm so ready to give up

I wondered how long it would take my father to get drunk and make a smartass comment about me and my hubby's breakup (even though that was not my fault). He's been incredily supportive the last 3 weeks. I was beginning to wonder if aliens had abducted him and left a body double. But, I knew it was coming eventually. He's in one of his "moods" today and Miller time didn't seem to help it.
So, my daughter and I went over there for dinner as invited by him and my mom. I've already been down today about things, just thinking too much I guess. My daughter has been in one of her whiney moods too. It's been too hot to go out...as the heat makes me sick. So, I've been trying to entertain her the best I can.
Well, we get over there and because I'm not the "shiny happy person" (if he's in a "mood" no one else is allowed to be in one) and he starts in with the "well I see we're in a good mood today". I just tried to ignore it. I was busy fixing my girl her plate and he starts bitching about how my mom is "nuts". And I was like "well so are you". And oh why did I say that? He retorts with "well, I may be crazy but, at least I didn't get knocked up and left". Then when my mom told him to shut the hell up, he says he was just kidding and not to get upset. Yeah right.
What sucks is I just have to take it. So far they've been helping me out and if I piss him off that stops. And right now I have to have the help because I have no one else. My hubby left me pretty well broke and he isn't giving me much right now (not that I expect him to, I'm not holding my breath on him for nothing). I'm just saving this all up for my attorney when I get one so I can pretty much bend him over and run it up him.
All that plus I have to hear everyday from my daughter that she loves her dad more than me. I know she don't mean it. She's only 7.
Still, I'm just so sick of this crap of being stuck between a rock and a hard place.

Quoting rabidmommy:“ I wondered how long it would take my father to get drunk and make a smartass comment about me and my ... [snip!] ... I know she don't mean it. She's only 7. Still, I'm just so sick of this crap of being stuck between a rock and a hard place.”

right now your daughter doesn't understand. A lot of people who get divorced the kid will say the love the one they are not with more becasue they miss them and take it out on the person who is trying to raise them. She will come around .. it may not be for a LONG time. Just let what your dad says go in one ear and out the other, his remarks hurt but just relize that is how he is be glad your dad CAN'T Get knocked up. that would be scary!

Quoting rabidmommy:“ I wondered how long it would take my father to get drunk and make a smartass comment about me and my ... [snip!] ... I know she don't mean it. She's only 7. Still, I'm just so sick of this crap of being stuck between a rock and a hard place.”

You are incredibly strong... I don't know how I would be handling it If I was you. It makes me sick to think what you are going through. I guess Dad's letting off a bit of steam too. He's probly just worried about you. I would have responded with something like" well Dad you should respect the fact that I am having this child...there were alternatives ya know". He should have respect for you for making a tough decision faced with a bad situation.

I think amazing things are going to happen for you. If your parents can really be there for you take some job training or classes and get a good job. Don't worry about using the system. So many welfare suckers in the past abuse it and if you, your parents or even your hubby have paid your taxes it's now YOUR TURN. Get wic, food stamps, medicade, housing ..whatever you need until you get that career traingin..heck they may even pay for that....

Good luck and God Bless...

Quoting Vamul1:“ You are incredibly strong... I don't know how I would be handling it If I was you. It makes me sick ... [snip!] ... ..whatever you need until you get that career traingin..heck they may even pay for that.... Good luck and God Bless...”

I'm trying to get assistance now. I have a WIC appt in the morning and a food stamp appt on Tuesday. I have a pretty decent job...2 actually. That will probably have to change when the baby comes though so I can find suitable daycare. I just don't make a ton of money. Thanks for your suggestions though. Trying to get all that straight now.

Quoting rabidmommy:“ I'm trying to get assistance now. I have a WIC appt in the morning and a food stamp appt on Tuesday. ... [snip!] ... suitable daycare. I just don't make a ton of money. Thanks for your suggestions though. Trying to get all that straight now.”

I know it's so hard but once you get it all done you can look back and say ...whew that was tough but I am glad it's all past. I wish you the best of luck with daycare. Suitable is sure the catch word there and it's so expensive. Does Mom work? Auntie? Sis? Shoot if I was up there and lived close you could use me and I wouldn't charge you hardly anything. Maybe 40$a week and you provide snacks and lunch type thing. I used to be a nanny for 7 years and no complaints. The boy is actually 18 now and still tells me how great I was.... It was all I had until I miraculously got pregnant ..... Knowing that I made am impact on a young life made me feel great...

Quoting Vamul1:“ I know it's so hard but once you get it all done you can look back and say ...whew that was tough but ... [snip!] ... It was all I had until I miraculously got pregnant ..... Knowing that I made am impact on a young life made me feel great...”

My mom works part time and her health isn't the greatest..not to have to deal with an infant anyhow. My sister also works. Even if she didn't she and I are like oil and water...we've never gotten along. She's so wishy-washy with everything..very unreliable. Now that I'm getting things kind of on track I'm starting to feel a bit more confident about things. Once all the "suprises" stop falling into my lap I think I'll be well on my way. Thanks so much for your kind words. And if you did live closer I would sure take you up on that offer!

Quoting rabidmommy:“ My mom works part time and her health isn't the greatest..not to have to deal with an infant anyhow. ... [snip!] ... I'll be well on my way. Thanks so much for your kind words. And if you did live closer I would sure take you up on that offer!”

Cool, I know what you mean about the sister thing. You and I sound a lot alike. Self reliance is good. Faith , hope and perseverance are wonderful assessts to haveas well. You sound like you have them all. I see a very bright future for you for sure.Not one w/o stuggle. "Such is life" or " C'est la vie" as they say.... but one that is full of wonderful thing to come. Stay postive and hopeful!! Just remember the higher the hill going up the easier the ride coming down the other side....