I lost 28 lbs

I was 148 when I became pregnant with my daughter, I gained so much weight, the docotrs were telling me I wasn't eating enough, and so I would eat and eat for her, well in the end we found ( she was born at 3 lbs and 3 oz) that there were problems with her placenta...uhhh so here I am mammoth women who was on bed rest for 5 months and stuffing her face..I gained ALOT of weight. Finally when my daughter was 6 months old, I was so unhappy, I was someone I didn't recognize, I hated the fact I even got pregnant, I would diet and then gain a pound that week..finally my husband said its time for a trainer. I have been with a trainer for 3 and half months now and I have lost 28 lbs. Its such hard work, and well since the 4th of july I haven't exercised but 2 times and I have completely screwed off my diet, I dunno why, probably because my husband is in Iraq and if I spend too much time on myself, all the other things I have to juggle get tossed off my priority list...my hubby gets home from Iraq in 3 months, I was supposed to surprise him and be my gorgeous self, but I am so depressed I don't even care anymore... anyone have some inspiration for me?? I need it. I am 9 m pp and I have never hated my body more in my life.

How much did you gain?

Gaining all that weight wasn't for nothing. Your doctor advised you to eat more and like a good mother you followed the doctor's orders. If you're feeling this down, have you ever thought about seeing a professional? Maybe try that and see how it goes. Also exercising increases serotonin which is a mood elevator. The more you exercise the better you'll feel!   I hope you feel better soon!

What's your weight right now?

I am seeing a therapist, a personal trainer. The other hard part about this is missing my husband so much and he is deployed, its hard to get out of bed and get motivated. My weight before baby 145, My weight a couple hours before I gave birth was 206. I lost 9 lbs after giving birth to my baby and then gained a whole lot when I was stuck in my home with my daughter on all kinds of heart and breathing monitors for 5 months...24 hours a day. My husband deployed AGAIN leaving me alone, so I wanted to surprise him and feel better myself (our relatioship has been bad since my self esteem is at a rock bottom) I have babysitters now, and I was spending 2 hours a day at the gym and dieting for 3 and half months, I lost 28 lbs. but after the 4th of JulyI thought, jeez, you are neglecting your daughter and all your responsiblities thinking about yourself so much..so needless to say I am off to self soothing eating and not exercising for the last 10 days...my weight last time I weighed was 192

How would you be neglacting your daughter? You said that you're gone for 2 hours hitting the gym. Do you have any friends that live around for support?

I took Ali before I was pregnant and I did lose weight.

I gained 60 pounds with my first pregnancy, and it wouldn't come off until I kicked my own butt workin' out...I got down to my pre pregnancy weight...I went from 120-183 back to 120....It took a lot of hard work, but I loved the way I looked...Of course, about 6 months after I lost it all, I got pregnant again...I was a lot more careful, and only gained 35 pounds...Now, at 10 months pp, I have started up an exercise routine and lost all but 15 lbs,...And as for neglecting your daughter, you have to lose the weight to be healthy for her. So you can run and play with her!!!!!! GOOD LUCK!!!!!!! I wish you the best!!

Thank You Thank YOu..for your advice, I guess I feel bad cause when I leave for the gym she cries and shes teething and I feel so bad about it, thanks for putting it into perspecetive for me. All words of encouragement help!