My twins one year..

Tuesday was one year since my twins have died. Everybody wanted to go do balloons and write on them and let them go over the water, but I felt as if i couldn't. i felt like i couldn't celebrate their birthday if they werent here to celebrate it with me.... I don't tell my family how I really feel but I really feel as if I am a failure at being a mother! My job was to protect them and they died... And we don't know why..
Has anybody felt like they couldnt celebrate their babies 1 year ? It just puts me in a big hole.
Also a lot has to do with 3 months after they died i ended up pregnant again.   it makes me feel guilty.

I am so sorry for your loss.
But you can't let this effect your current pregnancy.
This little girl growing in your tummy needs her mommy.

Your twins love you, and you didnt do anything wrong.

I am so so so sorry for your loss. About the celebrating, you do what is best for you. Do not feel pressured by other people. I don't think I'd want to celebrate either.

Don't feel guilty for being pregnant again. The new baby will never replace the twins. You will be a great mom!

Quoting MissLissa♥:“ I am so sorry for your loss. But you can't let this effect your current pregnancy. This little girl growing in your tummy needs her mommy. Your twins love you, and you didnt do anything wrong.”

Yeah That is what makes me feel bad.. I am like I feel guilty but I can't feel too guilty or bad about being pregnant and getting ready to have this baby because if I didn't lose them, i wouldn't be getting ready to have her and THAT is what makes me feel bad.. but it is the only way to put things. although I lost them I amway excited to be getting ready to have this baby girl!!!

oh honey may god ease your heart. Your new baby is such a wonderful blessing from god embrace her. as for celebrating nobody can tell you how you feel just go with your heart. Please feel better and god bless!

well my baby's first birthday is coming up in 11 days i dunno wat ima do probably get him a present & ballons and put it on his grave...
Dont feel guilty you know that a baby is always a gift and now you have experienced that dont take thing for granted. Those babies are watching you from heaven and I bet they are happy to see their little sister growing inside of you and watching over her so nothing happens to her ...

Quoting staycfacey:“ Tuesday was one year since my twins have died. Everybody wanted to go do balloons and write on them and ... [snip!] ... me in a big hole. Also a lot has to do with 3 months after they died i ended up pregnant again.   it makes me feel guilty.”

Im so sorry for the loss of your twins. May I ask how far you were?
We did balloons for my daughters 2nd year Angelversary, and it was nice. My family was there, and my nieces let them all go for us.
I too got preg. right away after I lost Haley, and it was the most hardest pregnancy ever. I know its not easy, and every move I made, I thought id would harm the baby, its not a healthy way to think, but I did.
Try to relax with this pregnancy, I know its hard. But you dont need any added stress, and so on. And to be healthy for this new baby.
Im here if you ever need to talk.