ppd? ...

so first of all, I really don't qwant to be judged. This is just how I've been feeling the last couple weeks or so.

I really think I have PPD. /I've been more depressed than I;ve ever been in my entire life, and i used to struggle with depression a few years ago. Thi is so much worse. Sometimes I get this feeling that I don't want to be a mom, and I don't want to take care of my baby, and that i just dont want her. Also, sometimes I like question whether I love her. I KNOW that I love her and that I would never, ever let anyone take her from me, nor would I ever give her up, to anyone. But I can't help this eeling, and well, it's making me feel like complete shit. I don't know what to do. I'm always down about something, and its gotten to the point where the littlest things set it off, and i fel like I want to hurt myself, although it's not something i would allow myself to do, no matter how bad the temptation is.

I have my 6 week appointment this thursday, and I'm going to mention it. But i don't know what to do anymore, i feel as if I can't control myself :/

Quoting kaitlin :]:“ so first of all, I really don't qwant to be judged. This is just how I've been feeling the last couple ... [snip!] ... this thursday, and I'm going to mention it. But i don't know what to do anymore, i feel as if I can't control myself :/”

  im sorry...

maybe they can get you on meds to help you through it?? i would tell them everything.

i felt like that too... like i was holding someone elses baby... and wouldnt have cared if they took it home with them. you probablly have PPD, i would make sure to mention it to your doc at your appt.

Quoting kaitlin :]:“ so first of all, I really don't qwant to be judged. This is just how I've been feeling the last couple ... [snip!] ... this thursday, and I'm going to mention it. But i don't know what to do anymore, i feel as if I can't control myself :/”

I would talk to your doctor as soon as possible. Even if your appointment is Thursday If I was you I would call Monday and see if I could get in Monday or Tuesday to see the doctor.

Best wishes.

it sounds like u definatly need to talk to someone... before i had my son i thought women who had ppd were crazy... how could u be sad when u just had this wonderful thing happen in ur life. then i had my son and had a slight bought with it..... it is so weird what happen to u after having a baby. i think alot of women go throught htis but arent brave enought ot say anything.... so u are doing the best thing by admitting what is going on and able to talk about it. and there alot of things u can do about it... good luck

I had ppd after myfirst, meds did help me deal with it a lot better. It's nothing to be ashamed of, a lot of people have it. I wish you luck!

Talk to your doctor...get the help that you need. I hope you get everything resolved  

thanks guys.

i just need support and stuff to get through this. when i had depression when i was about 13-15 i had so may problems with meds and im afraid to get back on them, but i guess its worth a shot. im def going to get in contact with my doctor, this is making me feel so awful.

i dont understand how i can be holding my baby and she'll be staring at me and smiling, and i still feel as if i dont want her sometimes. :/

hopefully things will get better, and soon.

Quoting kaitlin :]:“ thanks guys. i just need support and stuff to get through this. when i had depression when i was about ... [snip!] ... staring at me and smiling, and i still feel as if i dont want her sometimes. :/ hopefully things will get better, and soon.”

I had depression before my pregnancy and went off my meds and have struggled with the consequences of that this entire 9 months...I plan on going back on the meds as soon as I have my son. I know I can't do it alone, I hate the idea of having to take pills but I'd rather take a pill and be able to be there for my baby than not be there at all. I know it's hard but I'm sure you'll make the right desicion.

I def think that you need to talk to your doctor. Did you tell the OB that you had a history of depression when you were pregnant? I have been told that you should tell them so that they can keep a close eye on you when you give birth. Trust me, I have a history of depression and I am worried as well. I think you need to get to the doctor ASAP. I know it is hard, but if you need to talk, I am here. I am really sorry that you have to go through this..

Quoting Mommy Pearce:“ I def think that you need to talk to your doctor. Did you tell the OB that you had a history of depression ... [snip!] ... to the doctor ASAP. I know it is hard, but if you need to talk, I am here. I am really sorry that you have to go through this..”

i told the doctors about it while i was pregnant, and they told me if any signs appear, then i need to call right away.
at first, i just thought i was depressed because me and the dad were having some issues, and i only felt depressed when we fought and afterwards. but now everythings going great, and i am depressed almost all the time...

I feel the same way, but I actually have Depression. They jsut put me on meds for it.
But mines really bad, I do stuff I should. [Not Drugs or Alcohol]

Quoting kaitlin :]:“ i told the doctors about it while i was pregnant, and they told me if any signs appear, then i need ... [snip!] ... i only felt depressed when we fought and afterwards. but now everythings going great, and i am depressed almost all the time...”

Then you should call them right away..   I really want you to go and talk to them. I really don't want something bad to happen to you or your beautiful daughter. I know you know that it is time.. So call them on monday and hang in there until then.. Just try to think positive.. Maybe have your mom take your daughter for a couple hours and you go drive around to clear your head..

Quoting fierce:“ I had depression before my pregnancy and went off my meds and have struggled with the consequences of ... [snip!] ... and be able to be there for my baby than not be there at all. I know it's hard but I'm sure you'll make the right desicion.”

I went off my meds during my pregnancy, bu I was fine. But after I had Kaiden... I've about gone crazy. And I don't wanna take meds, though they gave me some.