post partum depression

did anyone have ? what was the clear signs

I have it. One day i broke down and thought that we should give our son away, that i wasn't a fit mother, that my husband and i should be divorced. i had headaches, no appetite ( i hadn't eaten more that one meal since my son was born two months before) and was constantly tired.

I felt really said and kept having these ridiculous compulsive thoughts about hurting my daughter. Not so much with my son, mostly with her. Just really irrational thoughts about stuff / excessive sadness. And then you feel so guilty for thinking any of that, and you think something is wrong with you, and your aren't capable of raising a baby. Its really bad.

I can't say that I have it, but I have had the waves of emotions. Just crying for no reason. It has absolutly nothing to do with the baby.
I hope and pray once my husband goes back to work I don't get hit hard.

my insurnance is so dumb i cant see my gyn for it i have to go be refered by my reg doc to a specialist..which i didnt know till i got to my gyn apt and they were like we cant see you today..of course i started to cry

I've cried probably every day since the third day. For the first week and a half it was really bad. I ended up spending quite a bit of time with my mother so she could help with everything and my husband could work without having to take care of the baby AND me. I feel much better now (the baby is three weeks old tomorrow) but I am still having some emotions that I don't really understand too much, for example it depresses me to think that I have exactly the life I've always wanted .. I think I might call a psychologist just to have someone profesional to talk to and help me through this change.

I'm not sure if i have it...i'm deathly afraid to get PP depression or even the baby blues.  But I feel that I'm prone to getting it since I have anxiety and panic attacks.  Am I wrong for thinking that way?  I don't really cry anymore, but I do still feel overwhelmed and very tired.  At nights, sometimes...I will think irrationally about throwing my baby across the room or stepping on him...but other than that, I dont' have much thought on anything else.  I am just dealing with alot of anixety, like when I go out to a public place or even with some family that I haven't seen in a while.  I get really nervous and shaky and want to throw up!  Should I be checked out?  My baby is only two weeks today!  I just dont' want to be put on meds cause then I can't breastfeed anymore...what should I do??

Quoting karmaGotMe28:“ I'm not sure if i have it...i'm deathly afraid to get PP depression or even the baby blues. But I feel ... [snip!] ... baby is only two weeks today! I just dont' want to be put on meds cause then I can't breastfeed anymore...what should I do??”

You can take Prozac and breastfeed.

Let's see. Crying constantly. Feeling inadequate. Not sleeping (other than the normal newborn not sleeping). Really down and hypercritical of myself. Irritable. Having no feelings about anything including the baby, guess what you'd call apathy.

I am just tired alot...alot, feeling like I'm gonna gain super powers and automatically throw my baby across the room....and I don't wanna be left alone in the house.  Are those signs of ppd or baby blues?  Or are my hormones just playing tricks on me since I did just give birth two freakn weeks ago?!

Quoting karmaGotMe28:“ I am just tired alot...alot, feeling like I'm gonna gain super powers and automatically throw my baby ... [snip!] ... signs of ppd or baby blues? Or are my hormones just playing tricks on me since I did just give birth two freakn weeks ago?!”

ppd maybe