re: Stillborn Birth on July 5th

Sorry for ur loss! You and ur family is in my prayers!

so sorry for your loss.

Im so sorry to hear babout ur lose momma, ur in my prayers

Girl you need to not blame yourself no matter how hard it is not to do that. I know so well. I find ways to blame myself everyday for my daughters death. I didn't have a still born but my daughter died due to SIDS. I wish this never happened. Not to anyone. I think it's a bigger slap in the face when they can't tell you a reason for it. Losing a child is the hardest thing to deal with. I wish I could take away the pain. I wish I could give you your son back. We are all here for you. There are some awesome Lady's here in the S&L forum. I don't come in here enough but when I do they are still so helpful and don't turn their backs because I'm not always chatting with them. They are so supportive. We are all here if you ever need to talk.

I am not going to say sorry or God needed him more or anything like that because I know how much that pissed me off. But I will have you in my thoughts and I hope that you are able to somehow get through this lifelong journey and that you have a good support team around to help you out.

swt_mommy I am so sorry for your loss

Don't feel alone and that it was your fault. I lost my daughter on July 1st 2008 due to complications. She was born still on July 2nd, 2008. I was 23 weeks pregnant, and she was my first child.

All was going fine with my pregnancy, no problems at all, until I was 19 weeks pregnant. Then I hemorraged for no reason what so ever. I bled continually for the whole month ... not a day went by when I wasn't at the hospital, my ob's office or the high risk doctor's office trying to get help. On June 27th my water broke due to the bleeding ... I at that time called the high risk doctor to see if there was anything that could be done to save her. He did the ultrasound and there was minimal water surrounding her ... his advice to me was a medically assisted abortion. (I could not do that since she was still alive) Over the weekend I was in the hospital, and they released me. That monday I had an appointment with my regular ob, she still had a heart beat at this point. She referred me back to the high risk doctor who again told me my only option was medically assisted abortion. I felt there should be something they could do, so I decided to go to a bigger hospital, known for their neonatal unit. On July 1st I had an appointment with them ... at 11:00 am I had an ultrasound performed - she was fine ... they admitted me to the hospital for close monitoring, at 2 pm the afternoon of July 1st my daughter had passed. They induced labor and I delivered her still on July 2nd 2008.

Not a day has gone by that I do not cry or long for her to be with me. Yes I blame myself cuz I wonder if I would have thought about going to the bigger hospital would she still be with me. I know in my heart I did everything humanly possible but the pain is still there and yes it's unbareable at times ...