Missing you..

So, today my little brother (4) was talking to my sister who is pregnant and she showed him her pregnancy ticker. She said that's her baby, and he said "no, that's jenna's baby".. then continued on to say Jenna's baby is dead.
I know little kids don't know any better.. But I just hate that everytime he hears baby he has to say that..

I found an outfit we had bought for her and it was soo big.. I always see other babies as big compared to her.. I looked at it and cried.

I'm moving in with alex because I don't think I'd be able to handle watching my mom raise my new baby brother or sister. I can visit, but I don't want to experience a baby grow up and not have it be her and even mine for that matter.

My PP drs appt is tomorrow.. I'm a bit nervous to what she's going to tell us..
Alex and I decided we were going to ask her what she thought caused the abrution and if she thinks it'll happen again. If she says everything will be alright, alex and I want to try again soon.. Not in the next couple months, but sooner than 2 years.. I can't wait.

ugh.. I hate feeling like this.. I stay up really late playing a game or something and then I sleep in and do it again. I'm sad during that time, but not bawling my eyes out sad... But right when I lay down to sleep I just can't help but cry.

It is just not fair.. I miss her so much.

im sorry hun   *hugs*

Quoting ♡ 5/20/08-6/12/08 &:“ So, today my little brother (4) was talking to my sister who is pregnant and she showed him her pregnancy ... [snip!] ... my eyes out sad... But right when I lay down to sleep I just can't help but cry. It is just not fair.. I miss her so much.”

I am so sorry. I can't imagine how you feel.
I wish I could help in some way  

It really hurts to see someone hurting over the loss of their baby..

I had a miscarriage my first pregnancy, and I was only 7 weeks along, but it was still really hard on me..

So I can only imagine how you feel. I am so sorry.

Oh hun, I just want to wrap my arms around you.
I hope everything goeswell at your appointment, I'll pray for you.

That's why you were at Alex's...
Anyways, I'm sorry, you know I'm here to listen.
[Kaiden is kicking the keyboard away. xD]
I'll share him with you. lol

Im so sorry. I hope that my prayers for you will comfort you. I can't imagine what you are going through. Just know that someone cares and is thinking of you. HUG.

oh momma! I couldnt imagine how you feel right now. I would feel like my world was falling apart. finding out my mom and my sister are pregnant. =( Its so hard to not feel happy for them especially since your trying to heal your own loss and your own heart break. Im sorry momma! I hope you got good news at your doctors today! I go wed. to find out why im not holding pregnancies. =(

I'm So Sorry Hun... I understand not wanting to be around babies right now... just know that when you guys do try again Lynnea will be looking down on her little brother or sister and let them know how good you were to her... hope you feel better soon...

Once again i am sorry...i know exacally how you feel....its hard for me to sleep at night without crying my eyes out before hand to....i just picture my daughter candace in my head and sometimes feel like i am re living my whole horrible hospitol visit.After my daughter passed i had my boyfriends little four year old cousin come lay next to me in my bed and she asked me..angela why did your baby die....it was hard for me to get an answer out without ballin myeyes out so i told her because she was so small she just wasn't ready yet..and her reply to me was but all babies are small....i couldn't help but break down after that....its not right and it sure as hell isn't fair i know...bad things can truely happen to good people but one day i hope it gets better for us both...p/m me if you ever want to talk..

I'm soo sorry for your loss. It's hard. My niece's first birthday was two weeks after my son died. That was hard. All I can say is that, it's gonna be hard for the first year after. I hope you have supportive family and friends, you'll need it.
Again, I'm so sorry.