*warning* extreme anger and foul language.

i seriously fucking hate everything right now. Im so done with my sorry son of a bitch boyfriend. I dont even want to go into the long fucking stupid story....i am just SOOOOO sick of his shit. Im tired of it. Its so sad, but im to that point where i am done trying and even though i love him, the shit he pulls makes me hate him and want to have nothing to do with him. My back hurts so bad right now. So does my ribcage and my fucking teeth for some reason. i want to scream but my ribs hurt when i do that. I want to cry but i've done too much of that today and yesterday and maybe the day before. Tomarrow... or today actually is our one year anniversary and he already ruined it.

I am so numb to all the pain that is going on inside of me and all the confusion in my mind. I honestly feel like i am going crazy and that i might flip off the fucking edge. I hate this depressed mode my brain goes into where i hate everything. I hate myself, I hate how i act, i hate how i nag my bf, i hate that i have made so many bad decisions.

i know i make NO sense whatsoever but i had to vent. idk if it helped. but it was worth a shot.

FUUUUUCKKCKCKCKCKCKCKKC.i am so angry i am freaking scaring myself. he has pushed me to that point. fuck. fuck. fuck me.

Wish you were having a better time. Once the baby drops your ribs won't hurt so much. I hope that helped alil. If there's anything I can do to make you feel better let me know.

Quoting Stephanie & kyle:“ trust me ive been there but just breathe all you really need to do is think to yourself is all of it ... [snip!] ... with him what he really wants cause like you he is scared to of the situation and is reaacting like any guy honeslty would”

i really dont think that its worth it. and i am at a loss for what to do. im just so.......TIRED of it. but thank you. what you said makes me feel better and reminds me that i am not alone. idk what else to say cause now he is home and i am sad.

Hey there...you know, I don't know you, and I definitely don't know your situation, so I'm not even gonna judge. However, I DO know that you have a precious little baby waiting to be born,so right now, just worry about yourself and your little one...and try not to stress out!!  

Quoting ash8188:“ i seriously fucking hate everything right now. Im so done with my sorry son of a bitch boyfriend. I dont ... [snip!] ... FUUUUUCKKCKCKCKCKCKCKKC.i am so angry i am freaking scaring myself. he has pushed me to that point. fuck. fuck. fuck me.”

well i certainly understand how u are feeling tonite.........i am so wishing i could shut my mind off tonite but dont think its going to work....and why....the boyfriend....so in short is your bf being an insensitive hard ass???????? because mine is and just in time before i move in with him on saturday....what a awesome welcome to your new home surprise..........bahhhhhh men...

Quoting ash8188:“ i really dont think that its worth it. and i am at a loss for what to do. im just so.......TIRED of ... [snip!] ... what you said makes me feel better and reminds me that i am not alone. idk what else to say cause now he is home and i am sad.”

Now im not saying end things just talk about it cause no one has time for games he is either in it all the way or not and you def dont need bullshit if you need to ever talk just let me know k

sounds like you need a "you day". Where you get pampered. My hubby and me have been more at each others throats the closer it comes for her being born. Like two weeks ago I couldn't take him yelling at me and I'm sure my bitching at him didn't help. So finally I had to sit down and figure out why we're acting like that cuz either we discuse things or I knew it would end badly. And I know we love each other more then to let it fall apart. We haven't fought since. He better understands how I feel and all the things my mind and body is going through. And I finally understand what was making him so upset all the time. Have you tried to explain how you feel to him?

alright girls, i went to sleep and thought about things some more. Im not so madand i think he realized that he fucked up. BAD. so we may need to have a sit down talk because im serious now. if he doesnt straighten up, im gone. this stress is not worth it and its taking a toll on my body and mind.
again, thank you so much...i read what each of you had to say and it makes me feel a lot better : ).