Venting/Wanna Talk...Kinda in a "SAD" mood tonight...

 Not sure why, Probably my hormones, But not sure.
Tonight i just feel crappy..
I was watching a real estate commercial, and I'm wondering if i will EVER be able to have my own house, my own kitchen, my own place to leave everyone but my family behind for as long as i please...
tonight i did the dishes (I live with my bf and his family.) i was doing them and my bf gets mad cos i didn't put a dish in the right spot... so we were fighting, i took a shower, straightened my hair, and did the rest of the dishes, when i got back, he's asleep...  so now no cuddle time, no talking, nothing...
sometimes i wonder if he loves me, sometimes i wonder if he's only with me for sex, and cos he feels he has to now that I'm pregnant   ..
I JUST DON'T KNOW!
I'm really want to cry, and i wish i didn't feel this way, i should KNOW who is there for me (in this case, my bf.)...
I'm looking for a job at 7 almost 8 months pregnant, i have an interview with Subway on friday! my bf doesnt have a job, and he's jus dragging his fee on everything!   i feel like i'm going to b the one to support us!
i'm embarresed when i tell my friends and family about my job hunting/interviws, cos they think he should be doing what i am doing, and i should not have to be this stressed...
anyways, i also dont know if he will EVER finish our freaking studio!   i think i'm gettng to my "nesting" period already! cos i'm getting so stressed! not being able to have the crib up and ready, i feel like i will never get ahead...
i know i'm responsible for getting prgnant, thats not what i am complaining about. i'm just really worried that i might not be able to let my daughter have a REAL good life, will she ever have her own room? with her toys!? anything!? will we always have to struggle!?
i wish i knew...
SORRY for venting...just had to let it out!
on better note, i get my make up 3D sonogram on the 7th   ... YAY!...

why dont you move back with your parents?

maybe some time apart from him might kick start him about getting serious and go out and get a job.

awww im in that mood too. i am so sorry.
my bf might be losing his job and he was trying to spend 200 dollars on a tv today when we need to save money for the baby and shit. i work, but its not enough for him. im too "lazy" in his eyes and i nag at him too much. when all i am trying to do is make the best decisions for us and baby.

we shouldnt have to feel this way. but as you said....we got ourselves into it, right? now we just have to make the best of it.

i feel for you girl and i hope everything starts getting better. keep your head up.

Quoting [Adry]:“ why dont you move back with your parents?”

i would, but i moved in here cos my stepdad wanted me out of "his" house, and we ad a HUGE blow out =(
and i've told him i'd leave him if he wasn't in gear by the tme she came... nothin =(

Quoting ash8188:“ awww im in that mood too. i am so sorry. my bf might be losing his job and he was trying to spend 200 ... [snip!] ... we just have to make the best of it. i feel for you girl and i hope everything starts getting better. keep your head up.”

see your pretty much in the same boat as me! my mom says that its cos they aren't the "mommys" and they dont know what we know! idk, i think they SHOULD tho =(

I GIVE YOU A HUUUUUUUUUGE HUG RIGHT NOW. Omg, we should cuddle  

Don't worry. You sound like you have the right motivation in mind and the determination of a good mother. No matter what, I believe you'll provide well, with or without your boyfriend.

I was in, and still am, in the same situation. My boyfriend is in Arizona on a paid internship.. but he just spends his money on Apple shit. I got denied every job I interviewed for at 6-8 months because there were 'better qualified' (AKA NOT PREGNANT) people, even though I had professional experiences with the type of jobs.

I'm here alone at an apartment I have near my school when I could be with my family in LA.. (but my grands don't know.. so.. I'm sort of exiled, hahaha).

I think if you just struggle through all of this.. it'll turn out well and your daughter will look up to you and be proud and happy regardless of you being able to have a house or whatever. I think it'll be fun hanging out with our daughters and living an adventurous life, whatever comes our way! But yeah, I know we're both hopeful that the dudes love us, stay with us, and support us till the end  

Hope you feel better. Really.

Ive been there! My ex was just like that! partly why he is an ex.
I moved outa my parents house after a big blow up and never wanted to suck it up and move back home after i was prego. He was always a jerk and never workin good. We had to go live with his family in another town where i knew nobody. I thought i should stay because i was prego and that after the baby was born then it would get better . . . . that lasted about a month. At my 6 week mark, i was working at 2 gas stations still wearing maternity clothes because we didnt have money to buy clothes that actually fit. I would leave at 4am to go open the gas station and get back home in the afternoon to find my baby in the same clothes and soiled diapers or left alone by herself because her dad put her to sleep and then left to go smoke weed. He got us kicked out of his moms house so then we stayed in a relatives roach infested house and slept on the floor of a room as big as a closet. After MONTHS he finally got a job and then we moved and got our own place so ghetto but about 7 months later we upgraded to a better place. He still had to always spend our food and gas money on weed and dumb shit.

Sorry for writing so much. I guess im just trying to say that if he doesnt change now . . . . good luck later! I know thats not what you want to hear right now but its the truth.

You are dreaming and wondering about having your own house and stuff . .. you will! Dont worry about that right now. You will have it, if its with him, another guy or just you and your child.

Me and my ex werent doing great but we left his moms house, left a roach infested house, got our own place and then got a better place. And when we split up it was just me and my daughter, i kept our place and the car paying for everything on my own and then upgraded to a bigger place!

I was always thinking like you are right now, but just keep your head up and stay focused. Thats all you have to do.

You seem like you have your head on right and will be a great mother  

poor you ! he should help you out more , he should be working aswell !!
why not talk to him about him and see what he has to say
oo and yey for your 3d Scan !