Scared of the c-section (long - sorry)

I am having my 3rd c-section scheduled on July 28th. My first was an emergency, and the second planned. The problem is when I had my second surgery I had a very scary experience with the anesthesia (sp?). I was all excited and ready and I really didn't think the spinal was that bad. However, I started feeling very anxious and started having a panic attack on the table. I couldn't focus on anything, I became sick to my stomach then I started drifting in and out of consciousness. I kept jerking awake and moving my head around a lot. My husband kept asking what whas wrong and afterwards told me that I scared the hell out of him. The Dr said that recovery should have been about 1 1/2 hours but I was in there for 4 hours. The nurse kept coming in to check on me because she said that her machine kept alarming them that I wasn't breathing. I kept falling asleep and jerking awake with the shakes. It was horrible. I swore I was never having anymore kids because of that experience. Well here I am again... I asked my Dr yesterday if they could put me out (which was an option at my second section) but after talking to him, he explained how dangerous it is for the baby because we don't know what to expect when he openes me up. He said that he has to work faster to get her out becasue of the type of anesthesia used and if he has any obstacles it will take longer. I agreed with him but I cried all the way home because now I am so scared to have to go through that horrible experience again. I know Iwill do anything for my baby but I feel so anxious and sick now. I am sorry to rantand Ijust hope that thingswon't be as bad as they were last time. I really just needed to get this off my chest and forget about it. I don't want to say anything to my husband because I don't want to upset or worry him. Thanks for listening.  

Granted it would be impossible to not be nervous after that experience, but try to look at it this way: Every labor is different, and every c-section is probably different too. Just like you didn't experience those things w/ the first you more than likely won't experience them this time. Good luck!

I know you are right. I need to just hope for the best (expect the worst) but as long as she is fine... that is all that matters. The doctor also said that if he sees me panicing, he promised that they would sedate me as soon as the baby is out. I really feel badly for my husband having to sit and watch all of this.

Quoting Kim-MarieC:“ I know you are right. I need to just hope for the best (expect the worst) but as long as she is fine... ... [snip!] ... that they would sedate me as soon as the baby is out. I really feel badly for my husband having to sit and watch all of this.”

Yeah, I didn't have a c-section, so I can't relate too much, but I'm sure it must have been pretty scary for both of you. I'm sure this time will be much better...just have faith.