What should I do? ( vent )

I'm not really sure what to do right now, I feel broken inside. Here's the story. My bf of 5 1/2 years (my son daddy also) wanted to open up nails salon. And there this lady (Let name her "M"). Actually she is his nail client, she offer to give us a loan of over $200g and this was back in March. At first I was ok with it, I wouldn't mind opening up my own business and so on. And M keep on telling us oh the money will be in our accout this day and so on. And when the day come, she always and I mean ALWAYS have some kind of excuse on how come the money is there yet, and this been going on since MARCH, so I feel like she is probably up to something and I don't trust her at all, and my bf on the other hand, TRUST her and after all her excuse he still goes with it. And in the beginning I had to in $9,500 to kinda hold up the place. And I feel like she is really fishy about something and I don't wanna have anything to do with her and no longer wanted to open up the shop but my bf keep on wanting to. And each time M call, he never tell me what they talk about till I ask then he tell me. I mean if we're a couple then aren't we suppose to talk and discuss about everything to each other? Well I feel like he doesn't. And now she told us that oh the money we will get this Monday July 7 in cashier check. And with that money I'm taking back my $9,500 and he ask me what are we gonna do with the rest, I told him give it back to her and he say oh we can't and that he still wanna open up the shop, I told him well if you wanna do it then do it on your own cause I'm not going to be invole in it. And he got mad at me for saying that, and didn't talk to me all day (we work together at the moment) and he went outside and sit so I went out there and he was like "I need someone to support what I wanna do" And I told him, ok if someone support what you wanna do then who going to be there to know what I'm feeling? How I'm feeling? I just don't understand why is it gotta be all about what he want or what he feel, what about me? I got feeling too, I got a heart too. I feel like if he need someone to support what he wanna do and I can't, I feel like I need to leave, cause if I go along with it I won't be happy. And of course if he doesn't get it, then he won't be happy. I was thinking, maybe I should leave, and let him do what he feel like he need to do. But then at the same time, in my heart say don't. So now I don't know what to do. So M call and he was talking and discussing with her about the lease and all, but don't even bother talk to me about it. I feel so broken inside, I feel like if I didn't have kid with him, I would of left already. Don't get me wrong, I love him a lot. But I don't know if I wanna go thru with all these. What should I do? Advise would be great. Thank you.

Sorry it's long.

sounds fishy, kinda sounds like there is something going on between M and your boyfriend JMO

Quoting ♥B♥:“ sounds fishy, kinda sounds like there is something going on between M and your boyfriend JMO”

IMO I don't think there anything going on betwee them, I mean she is her in 30's and she's not really pretty at all. I just don't understand why he trusted her soo much after all those excuse she give us. I just don't wanna go thru with it no more but he doesn't. And I guess, if that the case, shouldnt I just leave and let him do what he wanna do?

Where did M come from in the first place? Also does she want to run the buisness with you two or just help?

Ok here's my take on it. I think you guys both really wanted to do it until this M lady came along and started saying she would give the money and then started acting fishy so I think you really just dont trust her so is there anyway you guys could save upand open the shop together with you guys money and tell M bye bye. She seems to be causing the issue here.

Quoting xO_TiFFaNy:“ IMO I don't think there anything going on betwee them, I mean she is her in 30's and she's not really ... [snip!] ... go thru with it no more but he doesn't. And I guess, if that the case, shouldnt I just leave and let him do what he wanna do?”

being pretty has nothing to do with it... my husband was seeing a girl that looked just like a horse... I'm not kidding... she had the long face, big front teeth the whole works... even laughed like a horse... He has even told me that being pretty has nothing to do with it because most guys aren 't looking at the face...

I'm not sure what to do, if he end up going with the shop and not even thinking about how I feel, why stay with someone like that. But again I love him very much. *sigh*