TTC Meltdown!

So, this is month 3 for our TTC #2 journey. Since then I've had a false alarm every month. April & May were probably brought on by my own eagerness.. but this month I've done my best not to stress over it. The most I've thought about is baby names and giving my son a little sister or brother... but I haven't been freaking out over every sign. I've really done pretty well, relaxing and taking it easy.
Well, this month it a little different. Now I'm starting to almost feel like I've got a cold. I've got a runny nose, I'm so unbelieveably tired, I'm congested, and I just feel... icky. And it didn't come on like a cold, it's been brewing for the past few days then hit me today.And on top of it all, my boobs are not quite soar. A little more than period soar.
And, what else is making me wonder is that yesterday (TMI) I had a little brownish blood. It was just a little.
How do I just ignore this?? What if it's just another one of natures tricks??
I don't want to get my hopes up!!!!! I don't want to be let down again.
Am I alone here?

Babydoll..
Take it for what its worth.. But I am sure a lot of us woman who were TTC for years can tell you to stop stressing and let it happen when it is meant too.

Quoting MissLissa♥:“ Babydoll.. Take it for what its worth.. But I am sure a lot of us woman who were TTC for years can tell you to stop stressing and let it happen when it is meant too.”

See that's what I've been doing. I've done my best to stay away from that "desperation" to be pregnant again. And it's worked. I've thought about the positive.. planning my sons birthday party and whatever else.
And now, I've got all those little signs I had with Jacob. I don't want to admit to myself that there is a chance because I don't want to get my hopes up just in case I'm wrong. I'm just stuck. I want to be excited because there is that posibility but I don't want to be excited and be wrong. My body is saying yes but I'm scared to be let down.
I know it'll happen when it's supposed to.. I'm just not a big fan of the in-between! lol
I'm testing in a few days, so hopefully it's a bfp for all of us! =)

I hope its a BFP
But you need to stop puttimg your body through this maddness *shakes you*

  hey momma...take a deep breath... i seriously suggest a reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllly good cry..get all that stress and angst out of your system once and for all..take another deep breath.. and star stirring up that positivity..i know you have it in you..

Quoting and her name is faith...:“   hey momma...take a deep breath... i seriously suggest a reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllly ... [snip!] ... of your system once and for all..take another deep breath.. and star stirring up that positivity..i know you have it in you..”

Oh believe me, I had a good cry! lol
I'm trying to stay positive for my son and husband, but it's hard. I hate feeling pregnant and not knowing for sure. But I hate feeling pregnant and getting let down too. I'd done so good this month! I was so positive! I was thinking about baby names and that sort of thing, but it was all in fun with my husband, not like "I HAVE TO BE PREGNANT AGAIN!". And now that I'm getting those signs it's so hard not to acknowledge them! It's like there's some little pregnancy witch standing over me saying "come to the light, we have cookies and BFP's everywhere!" and I'm trying not to even go there because I don't want to get there and not get cookies... just another visit from the bitch they call Aunt Flow! She's the witch!!!
Yeah, I realize how weird that was... LOL

Quoting MissLissa♥:“ I hope its a BFP But you need to stop puttimg your body through this maddness *shakes you*”

I KNOW IT!! lol
I was doing so good. It's so hard not to admit "yes I'm having some symptoms, but it could just be nothing"...

Quoting ~Jacob's Momma~:“ I KNOW IT!! lol I was doing so good. It's so hard not to admit "yes I'm having some symptoms, but it could just be nothing"...”

ok try this. Repeat after me "IT'S JUST PMS"........ I have to tell myself that every day of every month. "It's Just PMS."

Quoting TTC cheerleader Loopy:“ ok try this. Repeat after me "IT'S JUST PMS"........ I have to tell myself that every day of every month. "It's Just PMS."”

Said it... started cryingbecause Letterman is on (idk why either...), and I'm a little better! LOL

Girl I totally know what you mean. I am the same way not to get your hopes up, I am all about being pregnant again I mean my son is 5 1/2 and I want to experience being pregnant again. Oh have you noticed everytime you turn on the televison - someone is pregnant or getting pregnant or there are thoses commericals about taking a home pregnancy test. AHHHHHHH!!!!!! Makes me more think oh is this "a sign" from god telling me I could be pregnant this Month. I am in the same boat girl. I so badly want to be pregnant. I will send you tons of baby dust - till then lets try and not think babies yet even tho we so badly want to think about it.
deal??
hugs!

Quoting tryingforbaby2:“ Girl I totally know what you mean. I am the same way not to get your hopes up, I am all about being pregnant ... [snip!] ... you tons of baby dust - till then lets try and not think babies yet even tho we so badly want to think about it. deal?? hugs!”

Ugh, I hate those pregnancy test commercials. Try reading a book, to get your mind off of it. Everytime you feel like your going to think about it, start reading. .

Quoting .Haley.:“ Ugh, I hate those pregnancy test commercials. Try reading a book, to get your mind off of it. Everytime you feel like your going to think about it, start reading. .”

Oh my gosh,I hhhaaaate that! Everytime you turn on the tv there's a pregnancy test comercial. I love the clear blue one "the most sophistocated peice of technology you'll ever pee on"... I let that remind me of my son, because that came out when I first found out I was pregnant again... so that one cracks me up!
But I stick to movies A LOT. Funny ones are the best! They really get your mind off of it! I'm a movie buff tho, I like just about anything!

Quoting ~Jacob's Momma~:“ Oh my gosh,I hhhaaaate that! Everytime you turn on the tv there's a pregnancy test comercial. I love ... [snip!] ... movies A LOT. Funny ones are the best! They really get your mind off of it! I'm a movie buff tho, I like just about anything!”

Definetly movies! Laughing is the best stress reliever.