I dontknow whats wrong

I have a 2month old and a 1 year old.
It seems like everything is going wrong.
My kids are in perfect health its not them its me....
We have been looking for a place and its just not working out..
We thought we had one, the people said we had the rental property and then i call today and we dont have it someone else does now.....
And taking care of the kids is rough... my bf works all day and im home with the kids all by myself.
I dont like getting the kids watched cause they are my responsibility and i should be the one to take care of them. If i wanted to go out and have fun i should not have had kids.
Just sometimes i feel like this is all way to much for me.
Feeling really depressed at times.
I think its way to late after pregnancy to have PPD....

I also feel like a horrible mother ....
a horrible mother for wanted a day to myself.....
and i dont run to there every scream..... i dont know....
My bf says im a good mother... but i dont feel it

Quoting ~* Mandy *~:“ I have a 2month old and a 1 year old. It seems like everything is going wrong. My kids are in perfect ... [snip!] ... like this is all way to much for me. Feeling really depressed at times. I think its way to late after pregnancy to have PPD....”

Hang in there!! It sounds like you are a fantastic Mum!! The thing is though sometimes you probably do need a little time out, even if its just for an hour to go for a walk by yourself.

Quoting Christie Ciavarella:“ Hang in there!! It sounds like you are a fantastic Mum!! The thing is though sometimes you probably do need a little time out, even if its just for an hour to go for a walk by yourself.”

i cant do that though... my bf is at work and comes home... and the babies are already sleeping and im exhausted and just want to sleep. and there is no one close by to help me out... and the ppl that are close by have there work and stuff to do. I dont drive so cant just get in the car and go some were

just b/c you ha e children doesn't mean you stop being a person... everyone needs a break from time to time, esspecially moms...........if you don't take care of yourself poperly, your not taking care of your kids propery either... they need a mom who's happy and rested.... and means some time you yourself once in a while.
Don't feel guilty about that!
Things get overwhelming at times and it's okay to say you need a break or some help fomr time to time.   Even an hour or two away just to read, or walk or nap can make all the difference.
Look after yourself honey, or you'll only be 1/2 the mom to your kids you would be if you werefeeling better.
hugs*

Quoting ~* Mandy *~:“ I also feel like a horrible mother .... a horrible mother for wanted a day to myself..... and i dont run to there every scream..... i dont know.... My bf says im a good mother... but i dont feel it”

your def. not a horrible mom. every one needs a break at some point and its perfectly ok. and is ok that you dont run for every scream... if you did youd be up all the time. i wouldnt worry too much mama

You're NOT a horrible mom!
See if ther are any social mom groups in the area, a LOT of churches have them and will even pick you up... it's just a time to relax while someone watches the kids and you have a cup of coffee or whatever... it really helped me, and then you can meet other moms in your situation who you can talk to

Quoting ♥K-Bears*Mama♥:“ your def. not a horrible mom. every one needs a break at some point and its perfectly ok. and is ok ... [snip!] ... perfectly ok. and is ok that you dont run for every scream... if you did youd be up all the time. i wouldnt worry too much mama”

my one year old sleeps pretty well but the littlest one sleeps in a bassinet and i sleep on the couch so the baby doesnt wake up the bf every three hours or so cause he needs to work in the morning........
and on top of takin care of the kids i have to keep the house clean and all those things
Its just all catching up with me... at first it seemed easy.... but now it seems like way to much for me to handle...

Quoting ~* Mandy *~:“ my one year old sleeps pretty well but the littlest one sleeps in a bassinet and i sleep on the couch ... [snip!] ... things Its just all catching up with me... at first it seemed easy.... but now it seems like way to much for me to handle...”

i know how you feel   cept i only have one baby. i hope things get better for you soon. maybe you should get someone to watch the kids and plan a night out with your bf... just to get some quiet time together ya know?

I only have my 1 year old and I still have days like that... and I end up call my mom to come over just for some company and to play with the baby while I get some stuff done and take a break.....you need a break before YOU break. Does your b/f 24/7 or what? I'm assuming he's the dad in which case he should be stepping up and looking after his kids once in a while so you can get some air.