Hardest day of my life. Lynnea update **READ**

My aunt vera was telling me about this good dream she had about Lynnea.. She was at her house in a white bassinet, Vera covered her up with a Blanket and Lynnea smiled at her..
I had a feeling about this dream, but I lied to myself to make me feel better.
The blanket in the dream was the same exact blanket we wrapped her up in when we held her.

So, on thursday June 12th at 9:41am I was woken up by alex saying that Lynnea had a bad night. She desated several times, Her Oxygen sat dropped into single digits, hand ventalated serveral times, and she lingered in the 60's for most of the night.
A couple days ago Dr. Bradley had talked about that low o2 sats that linger for awhile are hints that the baby is slowly passing. So, he had just given us our options if that were to happen. Which was either to remain treating her, or stop treatments.
So, the doctor came in and basically said she will not get any better because her lungs are just too immature.. and that they can keep doing treatments, but it would be futile. Right when I heard that it was inevitable, I knew what I had to do. Alex and I talked about it and we both agreed. Half the people we wanted there were already there..
Around 3:30pm we moved her to a bigger room, where we got to hold her for the first time.. It was amazing. Then around 5 it was time to let her go. So, As I was holding her, Alex sitting right next to me, they pulled her ET tube out.
It was the worst thing to watch. Everyone cried as she passed.. It was peaceful, and we knew she was going to be okay...
Alex and I got to spend some alone time with her.. We dressed her up in her pretty little dress and washed her face. .She is so precious... We love her so much...
And as we were leaving the hospital, we saw the most beautiful sunset. It was really big and gorgeous.. It was a gift from her, we know it.

Thankyou everyone for your support and prayers..

My prayers are with you honey. I am so sorry for your loss.

Oh god sweety. I am so sorry about your daughter. Reading this just made me bawl. You sound like you are doing alright so far, but I know this is VERY fresh. Hang in there. If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me. I have been thru a loss also it's the hardest thing ever.

Quoting ♡ 5/20/08-6/12/08 &:“ My aunt vera was telling me about this good dream she had about Lynnea.. She was at her house in a white ... [snip!] ... It was really big and gorgeous.. It was a gift from her, we know it. Thankyou everyone for your support and prayers.. ”

i'm so sorry sweetie...my prayers are with you and your family...Just know that Lynnea will forever be looking down on you smiling until you two meet again.

She was such a doll! I am so sorry for yourloss! I couldnt and wouldnt ever want to imagine what you are going through. You are in my prayers!

She's so beautiful. I'm so sorry for you loss, you and your family are in my prayers.

i am so sorry.

you did the right thing.

you are in my thoughts.

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry to hear that. I'll keep you in my thoughts. And she's in a better place now. You'll have yourself a BEAUTIFUL little angel watching over you now.  

Reading this brought tears to my eyes, I'm so sorry for you loss it's good that your maintaining as positive as you can. You and your family are in my prayers.

This really made me cry for you and your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. Now you have a lil angel that will watch over you.

Oh hun I am so sorry. Reading this made me cry   She was beautiful! You and your family are in my prayers.

Prayers and hugs to you...I am so sorry for your loss...I can't even begin to tell you how I am feeling for you and your family right now.  I am glad that you saw that sunset and you could appreciate it as a gift from your daughter.  Everytime you see a pretty sunset, I know you will think of her and know that she is smiling, just like in your aunt's dream.  God bless your daughter.

i know no words are going to fullfill your emptyness i will keep you an your family in my prayers im so sorry

I'm so sorry for your loss. She was a beautiful little girl.

I am so sorry for your loss. Reading your post brought tears to my eyes. Hang in there!