The past 3 weeks, my mind has been totally scattered..doing 180's multiple times a day. Do I want to keep this baby? Or do I not? & Thinking of all possible outcomes.
Well, my SO broke things off with me last night after giving me the silent treatment during both of our birthday weeks last week. He's not even going to give it a try- the question of him and I is out of the picture. I am devastated, but I know I deserve it. (backstory-http://forum.baby-gaga.com/about2461012.html
) What I didn't deserve, was for him to tell EVERYONE the details. So here I am, absolutely humiliated and depressed..people have it in their heads (including his parents..who I thought adored me) that I have gotten pregnant on purpose to 'trap' him into being a father figured for my DD... and I'm just thinking that I don't want to be a single mom to TWO kids with two different fathers. I want having a baby to be a happy thing, not this.
Emotionally, I just can't go through another pregnancy alone so I made my appointment today but I can't help constantly thinking that I may regret it. My mind is made up one day, and the next its opposite. Is this a normal way of thinking before having an abortion? Everyone isn't always 100% on their decision right? Can anyone link me to a website or something that might help me feel more comfortable about my decision?