How do you stop counting down....

I should be 20 weeks 3 days today... I can't help but know how far along I would have been if my body didn't fail me in December.

Im super excited to be expecting again, but some days it just hits me & gets me so down...


Pointless vent I suppose..

I think it will always be there but I look at it has a good thing I dont ever want to forget my unborn baby that didnt make it but im hopeing that maybe the pain of it will go away my box of my kids stuff when there where babies I put the bracelet from the hospital when I went for the ultrasound and blood test that showed I mc in there with my kids stuff. My mom mc in between me and my older sister and she says you never forget but the pain and the sadness fades with time. Good luck sorry

<blockquote><b>Quoting My boys=My life~10weeks:</b>" I should be 20 weeks 3 days today... I can't help but know how far along I would have been if my body ... [snip!] ... Im super excited to be expecting again, but some days it just hits me & gets me so down... Pointless vent I suppose.."</blockquote>




I'm due a day after you. Sorry for your loss

I was due with baby number 1 on april 1st and lost it dd was born a year later on April 3rd and the entire pregnancy I was thinking I should be doing this at this time last year I would have been findimg out the sex this time last year but when dd was born it took my mind off of it I still think of the 1st baby but dd keeps me busy so I only think about it at night.

I hope it gets eaiser for you

Quoting My boys=My life~10weeks:" I should be 20 weeks 3 days today... I can't help but know how far along I would have been if my body ... [snip!] ... Im super excited to be expecting again, but some days it just hits me & gets me so down... Pointless vent I suppose.."

It's not pointless to talk about it. I miscarried twice and it think about it all the time. My talking about it is what you need to do...

Quoting Maebaby2012+1:" <blockquote><b>Quoting My boys=My life~10weeks:</b>" I should be 20 weeks 3 days today... ... [snip!] ... off of it I still think of the 1st baby but dd keeps me busy so I only think about it at night. I hope it gets eaiser for you"

I don't remember being this down about it for this long with my first two losses.

thank you.. I think once I find out the sex and can buy stuff I'l feel better, Like it's real.

Quoting CrunkSalad:" It's not pointless to talk about it. I miscarried twice and it think about it all the time. My talking about it is what you need to do... "

Yeah. nobody around me want's to talk about it.. SO, my mom, few friends I have...

Quoting My boys=My life~10weeks:" Yeah. nobody around me want's to talk about it.. SO, my mom, few friends I have..."

It probably makes them uncomfortable. I don't talk about it with anyone... mostly be I feel really ashamed... I honestly don't know why.... But I think I can speak for almost anyone here in saying that you can talk to us about it.

My First child would be going on 2 august 25th of this year if i went full term. for me I couldnt stop counting down until my due date an almost 2 years later i still cant.

you cant..
when I lost my baby at 17 weeks I counted all the way up until my DD which also happened to be my first doctors appointment for this baby.

Sometimes I still even think how I should have a 6 month old instead of being 9 months pregnant.

TBH today is actually the one year anniversary that I lost that angel.  

I am sorry about your loss. Grieving is part of the process of healing. I know about a book that may be encouraging to you in this situation: "I Will Carry You: The Sacred Dance of Grief and Joy" by Angie Smith. It may be worth your time reading it. My prayers are with you. Sending a hug your way.