Any counselors...

on bg? or even someone to talk to? I desperately need someone

What's going on?

I'm not a counselor but I can sometimes offer good advice or at te least a listening ear. Pm me if you want.

not a counselor but I am told I should be... im here if ya need just PM me  

Not a counselor but I am great at listening and giving advice......

You can PM me anytime you need to chat. I'm a hairstylist which basically means I'm an underpaid therapist.  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Asher and Haddie's Mommy:</b>" You can PM me anytime you need to chat. I'm a hairstylist which basically means I'm an underpaid therapist.  "</blockquote>

Lmao!!!!

Not yet, but I'm just a couple months shy from my degree. We're all here to help.

I will give good, honest, mature advice, if you want to chat. Feel free to PM me. And, best on luck.

Thank you everyone... I guess i'll just say it on here.

Anyways.. I've known my bio-dad for almost 3 years now. Met him when I was almost 18. Everytime we've seen each other, he's always gotten mad at me for something. He's schizophrenic. I am not sure if that's why he's treating me the way he is.. Anyhow, the past few times hes gotten mad at me have been for absolutely no reason. The last time, back in December was because my bf sent him a picture and he didn't like it. He started saying how he wants nothing to do with me and that he was gonna get my son taken from me and he was gonna take him and raise him. It hurt but not as much as this last time for some reason... Last night at about midnight, he randomly texted me saying how he didn't like my facebook status and that it was about him. Well... it wasn't.. heres the background on that.

My son has been sick. He was admitted into the hospital for RSV this last weekend and my dad got scared and upset so he borrowed money to come see me and my son. NO ONE else, not even my boyfriend, you know, the father of my baby, came to see him. So I've been telling everyone that he was the only one there for us. He lives 2 hours away. My mom and my bf and his family all live roughly 30 minutes to 45 minutes away. My status was complaining about how my bf decided to go and call my counselor and tell her what I was saying and how I was feeling. And lots of people commented and I told them that my dad was the only one there for my son. And My dad just assumed it was all about him when I was complaining about my bf. And so he texted me saying he wanted nothing to do with me... again!

The past 3 weeks have been amazing. Or were atleast... We got along great. My son LOVES my dad. And now hes not gonna be here to watch him grow.

I started thinking about suicide.. And I cried and watched my son sleep and decided it was best to call someone, so I did.

Last time I felt suicidal was when I had post partum, like 4-5 months ago. I was on Zoloft but felt so much better after about a month and stopped taking it.

I'm feeling very emotional right now and just need someone to listen. Maybe give me advice on to how to feel better. Maybe knock some sense into me and tell me to not go back to him because hes just gonna do it again. I'm not sure if this is the right place to put this because I know this forum isn't protected but if you could be nice, I would much appreciate it and it sounds like all of you that have commented will be. I just need someone right now.. Theres so much more to say about whats going on in my life but I doubt it would all be read. So theres some of whats going on.

Sweet heart, I think the best thing for you to do.. Is tell your dad to knock it the hell off. Life don't revolve around him. not every little thing is about him. Let him know that he's hurting you and your son by doing things like that. Tell him its not acceptable. If he don't want to be a grown up then cut ties with him. Its only hurting you and your son in the long run. its a good thing that he came to be with y'all while the baby was sick, but that once, doesn't make up for how he is mentally abusive. I'm sorry you are going through that. I can not imagine telling my kids anything like "I don't want anything to do with you"... Thats like saying "Im immature and I don't want to talk to you because Im right and you're wrong and I don't know how to act like an adult much less a parent!"... KWIM?

Quoting Mama Charli:" Sweet heart, I think the best thing for you to do.. Is tell your dad to knock it the hell off. Life don't ... [snip!] ... want to talk to you because Im right and you're wrong and I don't know how to act like an adult much less a parent!"... KWIM?"

Yeah. It really hurts. I get my hopes up just to be knocked right back down. I cant stop replaying everything in my head. I just want him gone. I cant believe I let him control my thoughts like that and I let it get as far as it did. I would never leave my son, and its hurting me even more just thinking that I almost did.

Thank you so much for responding. It really does mean a lot to me.

<blockquote><b>Quoting ~Elliott's.Mommy~:</b>" Thank you everyone... I guess i'll just say it on here. Anyways.. I've known my bio-dad for almost ... [snip!] ... Theres so much more to say about whats going on in my life but I doubt it would all be read. So theres some of whats going on."</blockquote>


Just clarifying, youre afraid your dad will stop talking to you forever? It sounds like because of his mental instability hes going from one extreme to another. Idk if his mental health is being treated but it doesn't sound like it. But what he's doing is pretty common people with mental health issues. It sounds like he may be paranoid or something if he's assuming you're talking bad about him and its like there's no rational thinking going on where someone would just talk to te other person and instead he's bouncing to the most rational extreme.

If you are getting suicidal again you need to talk to your dr. Some people can sled medicate their depression with vitamins and counseling, but some can't. I have tried it and it never works. I've learned I need medicated. It was very hard for me to accept. It almost made me more depressed to think about being dependent on a drug. But I definitely do much better on them.

As for your dad there's not much you can do. If he doesn't have his mental health under control and isn't willing to you can't really do anything about it. Just do your best to be understanding of what he does even if its irrational. I can almost bet he won't stay mad forever. Eventually he'll bounce to the other extreme and be in your life again. Then maybe you can talk to him about how these things make you feel.

I got this in my inbox today... "
Didn't appreciate your post, I showed up for Elliott and I gave effort to you, More then my Dad did by far, I'm totally deflated now and I don't wanna try anymore. Your wallet is in the mail and should be there in 2 to 3 days gl in your life."

this is my facebook status...
"You have the nerve to call my counselor and talk to her about whats been going on???? You had no right. And she isn't allowed to talk to anyone that I don't give the okay to... what the heck...." and then one of my comments responding to a question that he thinks is about him was "My bf. He hasn't helped me since day freakin one and he puts on a show anytime someone is around. I've been at my own house for TWO months by MYSELF. I was at the hospital with my dad when Elliott was sick... who showed up? NO ONE. Im just sick of it. I'm doing this all myself and I try talking to him and then he has the nerve to call my counselor and SHE talks to him! I thought everything was confidential?!?" which part of that was saying anything bad about my dad? Ughh Sorry. I just need to vent bad. I cant vent over facebook because I don't need more drama. And only 2 people on here know me.

aw man. I had a really good message typed out to you and something stupid happened to my computer and it deleted it.
Don't let someone like that control how you feel. There is only room for real children in your life... NOT an adult who acts like one.
maybe go get on meds again so that you don't have to feel like that.
Im so glad you decided against it..
let that precious bundle of joy be the one to love you for you and not tear you down every day. its not worth it...Someone who wants to act like that, is DEF not someone who really cares