Spirtuality/Intuition

So explain to me what this is?

So when I was eight years old, I was looking at my brother's diaper bag and it had his full name written out on it. Josof Nathaniel Athey. I remember looking at his middle name and knowing deep down inside, I was going to have a son named Nathaniel. I said it out loud right then too. Then as I aged, I completely forgot about it. Then twelve years later, when I got pregnant with my son and we were picking names out for him, my husband brought up the name Nathaniel. That instant, I love it. Then it all came flooding back to me what happened that day.

I have always loved Elvis Presly. I was born on his birthday and my son, Nathaniel, was born on the day he died. Crazy huh?

Dejavu. Have you ever had it? I have it all the time. When things were happening to me and I wasn't sure why. I would have it. Or while I was out doing daily things which in the whole grand scem of things make no difference, I would have it. To me I feel like that is God or who ever, showing me that I am where I am suppose to be in that instant. Like I'm on the right path.

Then this is freaky. My sister in law has two daughters. The youngest is almost four. For four years she has told me over and over and over that she is NOT going to have another baby ever again. That she would die before she did. Convinced everyone and herself that she was not going to have another kid. She was over. She'd been there, done that, didn't want to do it over again. I told her right after I had my daughter, "I don't care what you say, I know from the bottom my heart to the core of my bones, that you WILL have another baby. That some soul out there is destined to be yours." I swear to you, I have never felt anything so deeply. Like it was a strong sense that no matter what she said or how convinced she was that she was NOT going to have a baby. I knew she would.

What is that? I feel like I should talk to a shaman to get more answers. Or to someone... a spiritual guide... but how in the hell do you find these things? There has to be a reason why.

Someone please help.

ALSO, my husband's uncle Freddy passed away a couple of years ago and I feel like he's still here with us. Like he is waiting for his grandma. I have a deep sense that he is NOT gone but just in this physical world. IDK how the hell to explain this all.

I have no 'explanation' but I thought I'd share my experiences.
My favorite color is lime green. Has been forever. Favorite animals are all big cats (lions, leopards, pumas, etc). Favorite number has always been 25. I'm kindof OCD about it actually.
My son, River's birthstone is Peridot. Lime green. He is also a Leo. I was 25 years old when I had him.
I've always just thought it's the universe's way of showing us that everything is connected, and everything matters.
But I have never been religious. Deeply spiritual. But no religious affiliation.

As far as seeking religious counsel, go for it. But certainly, be wary of anyone who asks for money in exchange for advice. Those who are truly spiritual teachers only want to help others, not to profit.

I believe in the supernatural realm and that some of us have gifts like yours. Sometimes I believe that I have gifts at times, but then times I think I'm just a normal human. I believe that spirits and my God speak to me through dreams. You have a gift and I would be careful when seeking out guidance. Like Veggie Burglar said, true spiritual leaders wouldn't charge you with anything.

Quoting VeggieBurglar:" I have no 'explanation' but I thought I'd share my experiences. My favorite color is lime green. Has ... [snip!] ... who asks for money in exchange for advice. Those who are truly spiritual teachers only want to help others, not to profit."

That is exactly what I was thinking.

Also, my favorite number is 8. My husband and my son's birthday are in August. I think it's God's way, or who ever... our spiritual guide... that shows us we are all connected. It's crazy to me. I feel like as I get older they get stronger.

Quoting ♥Mrs.Garcia:" That is exactly what I was thinking. Also, my favorite number is 8. My husband and my son's birthday ... [snip!] ... our spiritual guide... that shows us we are all connected. It's crazy to me. I feel like as I get older they get stronger."

Definitely. I believe with all of my heart that just exactly before we leave our bodies, our entire lives will make sense to us, all of the dots will connect, and if we have lived well, we will be completely fulfilled and at peace.

Quoting MamaAkemi:" I believe in the supernatural realm and that some of us have gifts like yours. Sometimes I believe that ... [snip!] ... would be careful when seeking out guidance. Like Veggie Burglar said, true spiritual leaders wouldn't charge you with anything."

Finally, i'm special in some way... lol. jk.

I really want to seek guidance... but I don't know where to even look.

Quoting ♥Mrs.Garcia:" Finally, i'm special in some way... lol. jk. I really want to seek guidance... but I don't know where to even look."

There are so many resources online. Perhaps just start browsing communities of people who share the same spiritual ideals. Forums can be a fountain of knowledge, and they are a great way to network. Just use common sense, you know? And don't give anybody any money, lol.
Also, read read read. So many wonderful books on these topics.

Quoting VeggieBurglar:" There are so many resources online. Perhaps just start browsing communities of people who share the ... [snip!] ... common sense, you know? And don't give anybody any money, lol. Also, read read read. So many wonderful books on these topics."

I'll just use my gut. My gut is saying something along the line of a medium or shaman. And don't worry about the money, I have none. Lmao.

I hope that is what I see when I die. All the dots connected.

My sons father was born on Friday the 13 th. I found out I was pregnant on a Friday the 13 th. My first due date ( before it was pushed back a few days in the later part of my pregnancy) was April 13.

I always hesitate to talk about this because me and my family have been called crazy/nuts/insane so many times, but in my family, my mom (still skeptical) talks to God, my sister sees "things", and my other sister feels other people. It's something I've grown up with. When I was ten I started dreaming about my son. I dreamt about him for a year. I always called him Alejandro Eduardo. When I met my ex we both like the name Alexander and then his family had a tradition of passing on the middle name of Edward. When I found out I was pregnant, that was already his name. It was about a year before that that my mom told me that God told her that the summer I turned 20 I would be pregnant. Sure enough I was.
The reason is simple. Not to be cliche, but there is another layer to our world, the unseen dimension involving spirituality, intuitions, and other unexplained, inexplicable phenomenons. Scientists, politicians, and business tycoons deal in physical, tangible industries. Pastors, priests, and other religious leaders are dealing in an industry that is unknown, immeasurable, and invisible. Much of anything known is based purely on faith and is still subject to human error.

Now, this is purely my opinion, but any further use of talents, gifts, and research must be done under faith. My mother and I both had run-ins with less than desirable beings when going through improper channels. I don't know what your faith is or if you have one, but my advice would be to be very careful which advice you take to heart and what you expose yourself to. Being more spiritually sensitive means you are also much more spiritually vulnerable.

Quoting Megarielle:" I always hesitate to talk about this because me and my family have been called crazy/nuts/insane so many ... [snip!] ... careful which advice you take to heart. Being more spiritually sensitive means you are also much more spiritually vulnerable."

Like what do you mean. "under faith"??? Spiritually sensitive... what does that entail? Like this intuition, talking to spirits... or all of it just in general. If you are sensitive to one thing, are you sensitive to it all. I feel like there is a reason I have this... why I keep being shown signs...

Quoting ♥Mrs.Garcia:" Like what do you mean. "under faith"??? Spiritually sensitive... what does that entail? Like this intuition, ... [snip!] ... to one thing, are you sensitive to it all. I feel like there is a reason I have this... why I keep being shown signs..."

Well, I believe in God, Jesus, all o' that and in that light believe everything like this comes from him and works toward his end. Therefore, I believe that using my gifts, and lending them to other people's uses needs to be done with careful prayer and guidance from God. If I use them as a parlor trick, or just to get a kick out of it, it can lend a darkness to that specific gift.

As far as being spiritually sensitive, I believe that children begin without a partition from the intangible world, life begins at conception, etc. Throughout pregnancy I think we are developing not only our child's physical, mental, and emotional structure, but also their spiritual structure. By listening to your intuition and impulses while pregnant, you allow your child access to that intuition and he/she in turn is more able to access his/her own intuition as a growing child. Now, as a very young child and baby, I believe that the physical, mental, and emotional health directly effects how connected they are to the general world spiritually. Then, as an older child, they begin to recognize their unique gifts and talents, and either, with support, indulge and develop them or, if ridiculed or corrected, ignore and suppress them. Often times they are suppressed, only coming to fruition in adulthood, when the adult may think they are crazy until they try to train and hone their skills. Now, the amount of suppression they have to work through is amazing. We're talking years of anger, hormones, and lack of growth. Spirituality tends to lend a depth to life that is often unfathomable for the average person, and often rocks ones sense of reality.

Now,whether they have to get rid of all the layers of suppression or have their skills well-honed by adulthood, it will always be easy to feel a certain amount of depression, darkness, and disappointment in life because much of pop culture comes with negative spiritual attachments. It could be as simple as listening to one song. I've had to ban myself from rock music because I will become very dark, I will stop talking to people I trust, stop going to church, stop being so proactive with my son, etc because it is so easy for those attachments to cling to me. If I do give in and let them into my home, I have to go through more processes of shaking them off and returning to God, since that seems to be the only thing that keeps me balanced. All of this is easier to understand if you believe in all the Christian stuff. Under that context, it makes perfect sense. Otherwise, it all seems random gibberish and, yes... very crazy. I went from 14 to 20 like that. One day I realized that all the things my mom had said actually kind of made sense. I found a church I liked that didn't make me feel weird and "heathen" and started going. That's why I always recommend a strong faith. It gives center, which is not achievable in and of ourselves.

And there is a definite reason. It makes me so mad when people say "the end is here" or "a war is coming". The war is already here. The end is already happening, but like any painful expulsion... it takes time and travels at it's own pace. I truly believe that when Eve in the Bible was given her punishment of painful childbirth, it was to prepare women for generations. Even if you reference all the end of times stories in the good book, it talks about a woman in labor as a sign of the end. There's a whole lot more to it that I won't get into now, but carry all the things you have witnessed in your heart. They will come to use one day.

If you ever do decide to dive into the church (in a deeper sense), start trying to sit in silence for a mere five minutes a day, with the mental projection of leaving yourself open to communication from God. I talked to a priest once who told me that once he was able to work up to 25-30 minutes he began to hear back. I've never been able to go that far, but it still helps me to regain my ground when I need to.
Hope this helps.   Feel free to message me if you ever want to talk!

Quoting Megarielle:" Well, I believe in God, Jesus, all o' that and in that light believe everything like this comes from ... [snip!] ... but it still helps me to regain my ground when I need to. Hope this helps.   Feel free to message me if you ever want to talk!"

See, I don't know how I feel about religion. I don't if I believe in God. But through searching in what I feel and what I see, the more I begin to connect the dots. Like OHH... that makes sense now. I feel like my research into this, is strengthening and building my relationship with God.

Quoting ♥Mrs.Garcia:" See, I don't know how I feel about religion. I don't if I believe in God. But through searching in what ... [snip!] ... Like OHH... that makes sense now. I feel like my research into this, is strengthening and building my relationship with God."

See, that's exactly what it did for me. I was definitely only a Christian because my parents are until my best friend convinced me that I shouldn't deny my gifts anymore (she's really into ghost hunters and all that, so this was her thing lol). The problem with organized religion is that you will never find one that is 100% correct. You have to carefully decide what you believe outside of any one denomination. I truly believe the closest to the earliest truth anyone is going to find is in the Byzantine Catholic church, but I'm not catholic. In fact, I attend a Lutheran church. I believe in the saints, the Eucharist, the pope, but I tend not to think of myself under any particular label. It's so easy to get backed into a corner and be told you have to believe something because you are catholic, baptist, lutheran, etc. The hardest part, though, is actually getting to that place where you completely surrender into God. I always thought it sounded kinda fruity, but eventually I kept feeling like I was sitting on the fence and had to fall one way or the other. I had to decide. Now, it doesn't sound like you're there yet, but it sounds like you're figuring it out. And I won't lie to you, it's definitely very hard to keep moving forward. Sometimes it can really be a two steps forward, one step back type of thing, but it's always good to have community and support.  

I'm learning that there are more people like us than I thought. I was even thinking about seeing if I could start a thread for Spirituality/Intuition/Etc. I thought for years I was just crazy and was so relieved to figure out that I'm not. I can only imagine how many people still feel the same way.