I guess just a post of relief

After a very scary night, in the ER due to her stopping breathing and turning blue, due to severe pain. (Ended up being really bad gas) BUT she turned blue and had stopped breathing at a red light due to a fit in the car, it was absolutely terrifying to hold a limp blue baby, MY limp blue baby. Who felt like she hadn't breathed for 10 minutes (My SO was a little more calm and helped me realize it was only a few seconds). God it was absolutely horrifying, and the most helpless feeling. sitting at what had turned into the longest red light in the planet. The rage I felt at every car, at the light, at my SO for being responsible and not listening to me yelling at him to run it, and get to a parking lot so I could call 911. All to find out, it was normal. Once we got to the hospital (SO convinced me we should just drive ourselves) We were only a few minutes away. She had pinked up, after going from blue to white as a ghost and clammy. She pinked up and smiled literally the moment we walked into the ER. They then transported us by ambulance to All Children's downtown. Everything ended up being fine. And I feel like it was karma apologizing or something. But as I held her to make a bottle at 5 am in the morning, as she's starting to cry and fuss. My breast leaked. For days I'd been depressed about not keeping my supply up as I wanted to with the pump, and it having dried up. It just literally came back, and I was able to breast feed her for the first time in a week or more. It's been a hell of a night. And I'm so tired. But her being home, and perfectly fine, then being able to breastfeed. I'm so relieved I had to get it out somewhere.

That has to be an amazing feeling!! Your baby is okay, he'll HAPPY, then your body rewards you by nourishing her, too? I'd feel pretty damn skippy and you should keep up the good job mama!

What a scary night! Thank God she's okay. That s awesome about the breastfeeding though.

I know I'm so happy. I still don't have enough of a supply to feed her back to back, or even close together. But I got a good feed this morning. And yeah holding your first born limp in your arms, I now know the feeling of being a parent, and literally not being able to move or help or go anywhere by law ! I'm so glad my SO is the calm parent, I would have been running red lights. It was such a busy road, I'm glad this is his second child. Because I was full blown panic attack holding her in the back seat hyperventilating. Lol and then to come out perfectly fine was amazing. I was definitely relieved.  

To top it all off it's only been two weeks since my c-section and I stopped bleeding this morning <3

Quoting Chels :3:" I know I'm so happy. I still don't have enough of a supply to feed her back to back, or even close together. ... [snip!] ... her in the back seat hyperventilating. Lol and then to come out perfectly fine was amazing. I was definitely relieved.   "

Well, hopefully you can get your supply back up. Just nurse her as much as possible.