adoption question, please help.

its deffinatly not forsure, just reviewing my options. im gonna cry just thinking about it, but has anyonr, or know anyone.whose had 1 or more children, and placed a new baby up for adoption? Im not sure i could emotionally handle myself. i need advice please... and if i.did would a closed adoption be better for.an aching.heart? or does an aching heart mean you need to keep.it? I do not want to be judged, these ate honest questions... Is this wrong of me to even think.about???

Sooo everyone thinks im dumb ? noone wants to respond. who am i supposed to talk to now 

I adopted a baby whose parents are married and they had 2 year old twin boys at the time my daughter was born. Thy did not feel like they could handle another kid and were only 19. We have an open adoption and text several times a week. The birth mother and I are like best friends. If she didn't live 19 hrs away we would probably hang out all the time. I would consider an open adoptions Fb find a family you really like. I me it was like adding to my family and having more extended family.