I was doing really good..

until now, I lost Jaylynn May 28th, pre-term labor, i guessi dont know why it started since i was on hopsital bedrest and on Mag. but anyway, i have been doing really good trying to live with have an angel in heaven. I havent been holding anything in, i talk about her when people ask, my boyfriend and i have her pictures up in our house, its been 2 weeks now. i know thats not a lot of time at all,
but why now? why am i feeling so depressed now?
My milk is all gone, it only took about 2 or 3 days, im still bleeding but i mean its VERY VERY light, MAYBE a little line a day.
I go back to work, today actually. in about 50 minutes.
I dont know if im ready for that though.
will it help? or will it make it worse?

Quoting Jaylynn's Mama:“ until now, I lost Jaylynn May 28th, pre-term labor, i guessi dont know why it started since i was on ... [snip!] ... work, today actually. in about 50 minutes. I dont know if im ready for that though. will it help? or will it make it worse?”

that all depends on you. It could be hard, it could help distract you a little. Either way, im sorry to hear about your loss and wish you all the strength in the world right now

i work in a daycare and everyone that i have talked to raises their eyebrowns at me thinking i wont do very good at work. but we dont have abbies there for one. and i dont get depressed around babies (concidering i lost mine so early id dint get the memories that normal people get) I only get depressed around pregnant people lol. silly i know but oh well

Quoting Jaylynn's Mama:“ i work in a daycare and everyone that i have talked to raises their eyebrowns at me thinking i wont do ... [snip!] ... id dint get the memories that normal people get) I only get depressed around pregnant people lol. silly i know but oh well”

its not silly, its just your way of dealing with it. Honestly, ppl dont know what youre going thru and how your mind works. If you think you can handle it, then im sure you can