SUDC *possible trigger*##very sad##

I am a crunchy hippie mom as you know so I like a page on Facebook called the progressive parent. It promotes natural child raising mainly non cio, gentle attatchment parenting, breastfeeding, cloth diapers, co sleeping, baby wearing and such. On 2/8 a mother lost her 14 month old to basically sids. He had no disease or sickness, no fever, no suffocation or strangulation. He just died in his sleep. This has torn me up inside for weeks. I am heart broken for this mother. I can imagine what this feels like bc I held my micrpreemie son in my arms as he took his last breath when we took out the ventalator. He wrapped his tiny hand around my finger tip as I rubbed it on my face and hummed to him with hos little head and ear to my chest so he could feel my heartbeat. I stroked his face and head as he drifted away. I felt the sudden urge to run out with him. Thinking "they can't stop me". My irrational thoughts were full of despair and hopelessness and I couldn't imagine my life without this baby I only had for 2 days. My sweet baby boy. I remember thinking I would feel God's presence or angels or feel his spirit leave his body but I didn't. I only felt pain as it rained outside. I begged God to send him to me in my dreams as he was there my whole pregnancy and while he was alive. To this day he has never appeared in my dreams and I've only felt his presence three times or so. I long for some part of him. 5 years later and his clothes and blanket do not have his smell anymore. All I have are a few momentous of him. But I do have my sweet 14 month old who I love with all my heart. When we co sleep her head has to touch mine. She scoots over to me in the night and gives Eskimo kisses or holds my hand. When she wakes up she looks me right in my eyes and leans in for an open mouth kiss and strokes my face or hair. We coshower and I hold her cradle style as she sings or rubs my face and hair. She looks me in my eyes so peacefully and I know she feels secure and loved. #sigh I'm balling and weeping now. I love my baby so much and couldn't lose her. I feel for this mother and I have never wanted to hug a stranger so bad


Anyway here are some links and the page is called the progressive parent on Facebook. You can see the whole story since it happened and all the comments and her blogs.








http://www.theprogressiveparent.org/2013/02/one-love-and-love-for-one-patrick-james.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed:+theprogressiveparent/nkCz+(The+Progressive+Parent)&utm_content=FaceBook&m=1





http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=MmpBn4EDRR8&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DMmpBn4EDRR8

A video of him which I played and my baby babbled back at him and said baby




Smurf sids and smurf sudc and smurf losing our babies. Nobody wants angel babies  

Oh goodness mama, I'm so sorry. Reading this was just simply heartbreaking.
There isn't a good reason in the world for a baby/child to be taken so soon, and I'm sorry for your heartache. Maybe this mother could really use you to talk to right now.... even though it may be hard, she might not have anyone else who understands.

My co-worker lost her baby when she was 2 1/2 months old to SIDS. It was awful.

This made me cry. I'm really sorry for your loss. I had a very close friend on here have a stillbirth at 24 weeks. My heart still breaks for her everyday. You are such an amazing person and so strong. <33

Thank you. I guess it hurts so much bc I lost my son to being preemie. Seeing her story and blogs kills me. There is a picture of her and her son patpat after he passed. She posted a blog and pic of him holding a hand watch in the casket (you cant see the casket just his hand and watch) bc he used to love alice in wonderland and she said her love was timeless and he is lost in time resting peacefully. His little lifeless hand. #deep breath

I dunno why I keep going to that page but i do.

There are thousands of people supporting her. If you read her blot post link I posted it gives and address to write to or to donate. Her supporters raised over $10,000 for the funeral and expenses. She donated his eyes and heart. She still posts promoting baby wearing, cosleeping and such. She encourages mothers to leave the dishes and play with and love your child. She blotter about laying in her bed holding his stuffer duck just crying. Ugh!

He was such a cute baby boy. That video is so precious

God this breaks my heart. That baby boy was born a few weeks after my son....N wears that red moose outfit all the time. I was debating between going back to work...and this confirmed it for me. I have been getting so frustrated lately with his teething...and this lady would kill for my frustration.

I don't even want to sneak out of bed now....Ugh my heart just aches.

I was reading a woman's blog a few weeks ago...she saw her son (2.5 yrs) get hit by a suv right in front of her in the parking lot last November ...killed him. Her words are so raw and beautiful. There is no suffering more profound then this

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mama Lizzy :]:</b>" God this breaks my heart. That baby boy was born a few weeks after my son....N wears that red moose outfit ... [snip!] ... the parking lot last November ...killed him. Her words are so raw and beautiful. There is no suffering more profound then this"</blockquote>




Yes I feel the same way. I get frustrated with her probably Les than most parents bc of losing my son but I still have those days. Now I just kiss her or sit down and play with her to distract her. Its not he fault and since I read this about Patrick I cherish every moment even bad with he bc I would take every day bring a horrid day just to have my son back. She even.posted in one of her blogs that our lives are the life she had so she lives through us and questions on cosleeping, diaper washing, baby wearing and so on.


I look at her blot and am overwhelmed with grief for her. It just isn't right  

And its worse bc she did everything "right" not even any vaccines. It just makes no sense. I worry about my baby girl every moment now it seems like

<blockquote><b>Quoting momma melissa85:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mama Lizzy :]:</b>" God this breaks my heart. That baby boy ... [snip!] ... did everything "right" not even any vaccines. It just makes no sense. I worry about my baby girl every moment now it seems like"</blockquote>




Its hard to let go and stop worrying....I know I need to...because my constant worrying through my pregnancy/pp has contributed to my ppd...It made me disconnect a little with everything. I just want to enjoy my time with him and kick this smurf already.

I feel bad saying that because I haven't lost a child...and I have no idea of the pain you have endured...or my friends/relatives endured. My whole pregnancy I was afraid I would lose him that day....I would picture it every day and cry about it often. I'm pretty sure I had pregnancy induced OCD.

That's what I was thinking too about maybe he had an adverse reaction to shots or something....but nope...and she did everything she could.

The video of him broke my heart  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mama Lizzy :]:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting momma melissa85:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mama ... [snip!] ... I would lose him that day....I would picture it every day and cry about it often. I'm pretty sure I had pregnancy induced OCD."</blockquote>




I'm.like that too and don't feel bad. Just be grateful you never felt that pain ant hug and kiss your lo all the time. I used to worry a lot but I thought it was too late for sids. Now things pop in my head as to.if I were to.lose her. It makes me very emotional and I have ppd too. I worry so much ugh

<blockquote><b>Quoting momma melissa85:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mama Lizzy :]:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting momma ... [snip!] ... sids. Now things pop in my head as to.if I were to.lose her. It makes me very emotional and I have ppd too. I worry so much ugh"</blockquote>




Same...I was starting to stop worrying about sids...and then I read her story. Stories like that...and that woman's blog I have been reading...are heart breaking...but they are inspiring too. You can feel the love like radiating from their words.


Have you tried any natural treatments for your ppd? I'm going to start counseling soon....finally

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mama Lizzy :]:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting momma melissa85:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mama ... [snip!] ... from their words. Have you tried any natural treatments for your ppd? I'm going to start counseling soon....finally"</blockquote>




Ikr sheesh

Iberia tried upping my vitamin d3 and St johns wort. It helps I'm also about to start taking fermented cod liver oil and butter oil and k2 for overall wellness

I follow her page as well   It made me sad to read that and then I got angry all at the same time. After a year old you think you are safe from that kind of thing happening to your child. When I first found out all I did was cuddle Peyton all day long.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Peyton'sMommy♥:</b>" I follow her page as well   It made me sad to read that and then I got angry all at the same time. After ... [snip!] ... you are safe from that kind of thing happening to your child. When I first found out all I did was cuddle Peyton all day long."</blockquote>




I weep every time I look.at updates. My lo is annoying the smurf out of me bc of teething the past few days but I look at her and can't help but laugh. She just grabbed my face and made me look.at her then.rubbed my face ( I tell her be sweet and rub her face or mine if shes too rough so she understands) then she gave me a huge open mouth kiss and stroked my hair. I loves her  

Quoting naturally crunchy:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Peyton'sMommy♥:</b>" I follow her page as well   It ... [snip!] ... face or mine if shes too rough so she understands) then she gave me a huge open mouth kiss and stroked my hair. I loves her  "

Her posts are very sad. Peyton's been driving me nuts but I have to feel grateful that he is here to even drive me nuts, ya know?