I can't get excited...

Well last year I lost my son at 25 weeks, now I'm pregnant again but I'm too afraid to get excited. I don't want to pick out names or look at baby items or even know the gender. I already love this baby but I'm just so afraid to get attached to the thought of having a baby because I'm scared that it will be taken away from me. I'm hoping as time goes on I will feel diffrently but all I can think about is if when I go to my next appointment is my baby still going to be alive. I have my 12 week appt friday and I just keep thinking there will be no heartbeat  

this pregnancy has been the same way for me. i lost my last pregnancy somewhat early on, and after i found out i was pregnant this time, every time i go to the doctor i had the same feeling. only recently, now that i feel her moving all the time, do i have a little bit of relief from the feeling. i believe its normal for women who have angel babies. I really hope everything goes well for you at your appointment. dont stress too much. i didnt even start thinking about baby stuff til after my 20 week appointment this time around (seeing baby and finding out shes a girl)

I feel the same. I am 6 weeks pregnant and i lost my son Noah at 21 weeks on August 21st of last year. Stay strong and positive mama. i know how hard it is.

aww...sorry mama...i'm sure that's hard!!! something that may help is to get a doppler so you can hear the baby every day and know it's ok.

Quoting lilmzzgreeneyez *NMOA*:" this pregnancy has been the same way for me. i lost my last pregnancy somewhat early on, and after i ... [snip!] ... start thinking about baby stuff til after my 20 week appointment this time around (seeing baby and finding out shes a girl)"

Thank you. I try not to think to much about it but the thought is kind of always in the back of my head. Hopefully as I get further along things will change.

Thank you.