anxiety is taking over my life..

I guess this is just a vent, I dunno.
I have had extreme anxiety/panic attacks almost my whole life and I started zoloft when I was 14 it worked wonders and I felt normal again.
I got pregnant when I was 18 and stopped taking it.
My daughter is now 14 months old and I just tured 20, my anxiety is back 100x worse and its taking over my life.
To the point I cannot function in everyday situations and its killing me.
I've put off seeing a doctor for too long and I think today was my breaking point. I'm finding a doctor tomorrow so I can get back on my meds.
I'm sick of feeling like this, I'm always on edge and I feel so confused and unable to concentrate I just want to be myself again!
Anyway just looking for someone to help/support me through this because I have no one in my corner and I feel so alone.

Thanks for reading and please respond if you'd like to help, and sorry for typos I'm using my phone.

Quoting Ole' No Name:" I guess this is just a vent, I dunno. I have had extreme anxiety/panic attacks almost my whole life and ... [snip!] ... and I feel so alone. Thanks for reading and please respond if you'd like to help, and sorry for typos I'm using my phone."

Girl   You are strong for making it as long as you did without meds its not easy!!! ... I am not going to shove my relgion on you .. but maybe this song will help . Plum aactually wrote this song becuase of her anxiety in high school and how bad she had it.. hiding in teh bathrooms trying to breathe. You can do it   mama hang tough and good luck I hope u get relief soon! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ylnx0NA9X4

You are doing the right thing, contacting a dr.

I don't know what I can do to help. Do you need to talk?

<blockquote><b>Quoting Noah_Jeffery:</b>" Girl   You are strong for making it as long as you did without meds its not easy!!! ... I am not going ... [snip!] ... breathe. You can do it   mama hang tough and good luck I hope u get relief soon! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ylnx0NA9X4"</blockquote>




Thank you! Ill listen to the song later DD is sleeping beside me, don't wanna wake her  
I've just started having these problems in the past 6 months but its progressively getting worse so I think meds are the only way I can gain my life back. I want to be the best mom I can and I feel like this is making it hard for me to really do that.

Quoting Ole' No Name:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Noah_Jeffery:</b>" Girl   You are strong for making it as ... [snip!] ... way I can gain my life back. I want to be the best mom I can and I feel like this is making it hard for me to really do that."

Then   THATS what you need to do , if you think being on meds is gojnbg to change the type of other you are it wont , expect make you more sane lol   I know people who deal with anixety and its not easy , your not doing anything wrong , and your strong and this will just make your stronger , every bump in the road has a good part in the end! Talk to your doc and get on meds  !!! You need to be happy !

I<blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:</b>" You are doing the right thing, contacting a dr. I don't know what I can do to help. Do you need to talk?"</blockquote>



I guess just someone to talk to and reassure me I'm not dying when the panic is overwhelming.
I just feel like I'm dying and nobody understands why I can't just stop thinking about it.

I coped really well without meds finally before my bubbz..then, his anxiety became my anxiety(he is on the spectrum but we dunno much yet). Now that I have a 3yo, and a 12 month old, its getting much worse.

Im hoping that once I stop nursing and my hormones die down that I can get back to where I was, even if it takes meds. Im like crawling in my skin..especially when theyre both balls to the wall on opposite ends of the house.. I try to keep myself busy though, when they arent keeping me busy.. Im doing theraputic things like art projects and reading. A glass of wine doesnt hurt either lol

I hope it gets better/easier for you. Alot of people dont understand, but, you arent alone.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ole' No Name:</b>" I<blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:</b>" You are doing the right thing, ... [snip!] ... when the panic is overwhelming. I just feel like I'm dying and nobody understands why I can't just stop thinking about it."</blockquote>


Well, you aren't dying. I guess maybe, you could think of it as the opposite? You are alive therefore you have these feelings and emotions. Have you noticed a particular time of the day, setting, place that makes your anxiety and/or panic worse? Have you tried talking yourself up into going somewhere, what it's going to be like, what you are going to do once you get there- not to make it worse, but so you know you have control and what your plan of action is so you can get through it as normally as possible. Again, I think you are doing amazing. The first step is to recognize there is a problem and second to act to receive treatment. If you ever need someone to talk to, you can PM me also.

<blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Ole' No Name:</b>" I<blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ ... [snip!] ... recognize there is a problem and second to act to receive treatment. If you ever need someone to talk to, you can PM me also."</blockquote>




I usually do okay during the day but around 3-4pm that's when it gets bad.
I got in with a local physiologist today, I go for intake march 21st but jeeez that feels so far away.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ole' No Name:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting ... [snip!] ... that's when it gets bad. I got in with a local physiologist today, I go for intake march 21st but jeeez that feels so far away."</blockquote>

It's not that far away. 3 weeks. You can do it!

<blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Ole' No Name:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ ... [snip!] ... go for intake march 21st but jeeez that feels so far away."</blockquote> It's not that far away. 3 weeks. You can do it!"</blockquote>




I did okay yesterday and today I've kept myself busy so that's helping.
MIL gave me some 1mg kolonapin (sp?) In case its too much on a day before I see the doctor. I know that's illegal and all but honestly just having them makes me feel better even without taking it.
I know that sounds silly, but I guess to me it gives me comfort to know I can take that and it'll make the anxiety go away shortly.