Quoting Cherry Davis:" Thank you it seems longer then five years lol! But I do understand where you are coming from especially ... [snip!] ... to come home. I know it's tough and frustrating and I understand your need to vent i'm here to listen if you need an ear "
Thank you for understanding. My SO has not had a real seriouls manic episode in over a long time. But it can get very scary and I am freaked out for when the baby is older.
Like one night my husband went into a total sever mania, I kicked him out of the bedroom because me and the baby were trying to sleep. Well he started yelling at me. I went out and he had all the lights on and weapons ready. I asked what the hell are you yelling at? Its 4 am and we can't call your Dr till morning. He said I am yelling at you! I said, I have been in the bed room. He said ohhhh I was hearing voices, I am sorry. I said look I am going to bed we will call the dr. tomorrow. Can I turn off the lights? He yells NO, the robbers need to know we are home.
So I don't know what I will tell my baby in a few years when daddy is staying up all night by the door with a weapon saying that he needs to watch for intruders. Or when he talks to himself in front of a LO.
it can be really really hard, I don't know why people thought it was un-understanding of me to vent like that. Because I am the most understanding person in his life. Living with someone who is bipolar is not easy at all. but I do love the man.
BBBUUUUT I do get mad when he thinks it is best to stop his meds and gets very manic. It is horrible for me, but he loves it most of the time.
Don't you hate when you say honey I think your mood is getting off and they say "I feel better than I have in a very long time!" You think oohh nooo. LOL KWIM?