re: I just can't anymore

<blockquote><b>Quoting 1inpink2inblue:</b>" He is a bails bondsman. His job is on call 24/7. He just called to bail someone out of jail. But obviously ... [snip!] ... of jail. But obviously it was his dad calling and his dad just doesn't feel like getting the bond so is sending Dh to get it."</blockquote>



Oh okay! Sorry I was so confused!

I'd sit his ass down and tell him how you feel. Not all nice nice because I know that did work for me. I flat out told SO to shut his damn mouth or starve and do his own laundry and clean the house himself. After that, he did come around a little and thanks me more often for what I do.

Quoting ♥ logan's mommy:" <blockquote><b>Quoting 1inpink2inblue:</b>" He is a bails bondsman. His job is on ... [snip!] ... do his own laundry and clean the house himself. After that, he did come around a little and thanks me more often for what I do."

I just tried to tell him before he left how stressed i was and he smurfing blamed me!
He said
why aren't you sleeping now then .
I said
well every time I lay down DS wakes up.
Well that because you wait so long to go to bed.
Uhhh no. As soon as I am done brushing my teeth and smurf he wakes up every smurfing time.
Stop yelling are you trying to wake him to prove your smurfing point
.............................. 
Were am I suppose to sleep any way the bed is soaking wet.
On the couch.
uhhh you were sleeping there until like 3 minutes ago (smurfing peace of smurf mother smurfer)

<blockquote><b>Quoting 1inpink2inblue:</b>" I just tried to tell him before he left how stressed i was and he smurfing blamed me! He said why aren't ... [snip!] ... bed is soaking wet. On the couch. uhhh you were sleeping there until like 3 minutes ago (smurfing peace of smurf mother smurfer)"</blockquote>

It sounds like there may be deeper issues than just this and tonight is just triggering your anger over other things? Maybe?

Quoting ♥ logan's mommy:" <blockquote><b>Quoting 1inpink2inblue:</b>" I just tried to tell him before he left ... [snip!] ... It sounds like there may be deeper issues than just this and tonight is just triggering your anger over other things? Maybe?"

You have no idea. It pisses me off to no end though that he makes EVRYTHING my fault. He got up to pee 3 xs last night and saw me dealing with the baby every time, but never once offered to help. He knew I was sick. Yet I had to wake his ass to get him to help. Yet everything is my fault.

<blockquote><b>Quoting 1inpink2inblue:</b>" You have no idea. It pisses me off to no end though that he makes EVRYTHING my fault. He got up to pee ... [snip!] ... but never once offered to help. He knew I was sick. Yet I had to wake his ass to get him to help. Yet everything is my fault."</blockquote>


:/ ever consider counseling?

Quoting 1inpink2inblue:" I can't keep doing what I am doing I am pushing myself to hard. Physically, mentally, emotionally. I ... [snip!] ... leave. Like right the smurf now. I have been sick for over a week because of my lack of sleep and I still cant get a break. "

*hugs*

Mama you need to see a DR and try to get on meds for PPD, i know what its like, i've been there a few weeks ago & am beginning to feel much better now (finally)

Its not a quick fix, but im not crying all the time and can enjoy moments with the kids now.

Before i use to loathe it, i was angry at DH a lot & wanted to leave.

It will get better, but you need to help yourself before you have a break down.
xx

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ecstasy:</b>" *hugs* Mama you need to see a DR and try to get on meds for PPD, i know what its like, i've been there ... [snip!] ... angry at DH a lot & wanted to leave. It will get better, but you need to help yourself before you have a break down. xx"</blockquote>


!!!!!!!

I had terrible PPD as well and sometimes I still have moments and DS is 9 months. I hated SO for a while and very thing was a fight. Counseling and medication works wonders!

Quoting ♥ logan's mommy:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Ecstasy:</b>" *hugs* Mama you need to see a DR and try to ... [snip!] ... have moments and DS is 9 months. I hated SO for a while and very thing was a fight. Counseling and medication works wonders!"

Its very hard.. and not something i could have fixed myself.

Im beginning to feel more 'human' im coping much more now and can enjoy life in general.

Before i felt like my days dragged on... it was never ending.

OP i know what its like, my 5mo has horrible AR also and screams ALL the time.

From mamas who have been in your shoes please take our advice.

I remember you mentioning something about insurance running out or something?.. is there any other way you could see a DR to discuss how you're feeling?

Quoting Ecstasy:" Its very hard.. and not something i could have fixed myself. Im beginning to feel more 'human' im coping ... [snip!] ... something about insurance running out or something?.. is there any other way you could see a DR to discuss how you're feeling? "

I could try to see a dr. But it would have to be through charity and that could take months. Someone bought the hospital there not long ago and they are down to a skeleton crew now.

Quoting 1inpink2inblue:" I could try to see a dr. But it would have to be through charity and that could take months. Someone bought the hospital there not long ago and they are down to a skeleton crew now."

Oh wow!

Here if you don't have medicare you can just pay $60 and see a DR when they're next avail.

You can even ask about paying it off if you cant afford it that week etc.

Is that not an option there?

Quoting Ecstasy:" Oh wow! Here if you don't have medicare you can just pay $60 and see a DR when they're next avail. ... [snip!] ... they're next avail. You can even ask about paying it off if you cant afford it that week etc. Is that not an option there?"

Not that I know of.