Quoting A Beautiful Disaster:" does she have wet diapers? Is she dropping weight? you're at the 3 month mark, which means BRUTAL growth ... [snip!] ... loss. Thats what you need to watch, not what you pump or how she reacts to feeding. Good luck mama!!! YOU ARE DOING GREAT!"
Diapers seem to be good, although with this last week her bowel movements have changed drastically. Her weight is one of my biggest concerns. She is not gaining much, her pedi keeps telling me that she should be gaining more but that they just want to watch her.
I just feel like I am doing something wrong, every time I nurse (every 2 hours) she always seems hungry right after. The nurse told me to encourage her to keep sucking, but if nothing comes out (or comes out easily) Ridley starts to fuss and won't stay latched on, so I end up pumping. But if I pump I don't get much more than an ounce. I'm just really scared that I'm going to have to give her formula again, because I am not able to save much (if anything) in the fridge, for "just-in-case."
The nurse also wants me to take away the pacifier, except for at bedtime. But without it all she does is cry and fuss because she is hungry and can't get anything. So I have gone against the nurse, at least that way, because at least then the pacifier can hold her off for a little bit, for me to get something back. As far as support...that's severely lacking.
Jason basically just tells me to do whatever I want. That if I want to quit and give formula, then that's fine too. My mother hasn't been helpful since before Ridley was born. She didn't breastfeed, so the idea is foreign to her. All she kept telling me were stories of women who couldn't do it, and that its not easy. When I started really having issues (Ridley was about 2 weeks) my mom started telling me, "well you did it for a week, she got the important nutrients, so you don't have to breastfeed." So never really any encouragement...just do whatever I want.
I knew this wasn't going to be easy, but I just wish is wasn't so hard, lol.