Quoting ^.^ Chippermunkk:" Ive been so out of it i checked this, meant to reply and then forgot. Im doing" better" i would say. ... [snip!] ... real. And this week has flown by. (Not even a full week yet). But you know what i mean lol. Been losing" track" of time a bit."
Honestly it won't feel real for a while... sometimes i still think i'll get a call or a email that it's a joke.. but no such luck.. even with the obituaries, ect. it still bothers me to be called a widow... a widow at 23..people cry when i meet them...they always ask me about it... honestly, that's the thing you're going to have to be prepared for... the story...how'd it happen, how are you, how long has it been..that sort of thing.. i still get teary eyed & sometimes cry when people ask about my dh car accident.. most the time i just knod away the tears & give them a weak smile because i don't ALWAYS want to talk about it.. my dh & sons angelversary are three days & three years apart..so i grieve for them both...
It does get a little easier though OP, take it one day at a time.. i find that even though it hurts, i still 'talk' to him...sometimes write letters...look at our pictures together..
just take it easy & love on your son.. it makes it a whole lot better.. i started letting my son sleep in the bed with me..its comforting to have him close.