Overwhelmed. *vent*

So smurfing stressed, tired, and angry,
Where to begin?
My husband works from 5pm-1am
My daughter just happens to love being awake the most from 8pm-12am...
On top of being a brand new mom, having the baby blues HARD I am also keeping my step-son for the first time overnight by myself since having my daughter. He is 7 and pretty easy going but I just want to go to sleep and he's not going to sleep till 8:30.
I think my dad is tweeking. Possibly my mother too (they aren't together)
I know my mom has done it a "few" times with my smurf of a sister. My mom is 60yrs old with all sorts of health problems, that smurf is going to kill her.
My dad also has tweeked a "few" times with my sister. (not his kid though)
I am so smurfing tired of all the god damn drama in my smurfing life that has absolutly nothing to do with me. If i'ts not one thing it's another. We're finally getting along (for now) with my stepsons mother and now my dad is causing the drama. I'm just so smurfing done. I just wanna sleep and never wake up... My smurfing tailbone has been killing me since I had my daughter, it hurts to laugh, cough, sit or stand. I have been having headaches every single day that are to the point to where I bawl like a smurfing baby. I just don't know what the smurf to do anymore....I just don't want to live anymore.

Quoting TracyLynne!:" So smurfing stressed, tired, and angry, Where to begin? My husband works from 5pm-1am My daughter just ... [snip!] ... point to where I bawl like a smurfing baby. I just don't know what the smurf to do anymore....I just don't want to live anymore."

I feel like my daughter would be fine without me. She's too young to even remember me, he dad is a good father, he would manage.

oh mama   I think you need to talk to someone about feeling like this... Can you call your hubby? Have you talked to anyone about possible PPD?

hey momma just BREATH! ik ur feelin down and stressed out right now but things will get better! you daughter NEEDS you momma no matter how your feeling right now she NEEDS you! your her momma and she will ALWAYS need you. just ignore the people who are causing you drama and focus on your bundle of joy. have you talked to your doctor about your headaches and you baby blues?

How old is your baby? Could it be postpartum depression?

Definitely sounds like PPD. Do you have any friends close by? I promise you're not the only one who feels/ has felt this way :-(

I am sorry that you are facing this time of uncertainty and pain. My heart goes out to you. But in the midst of these circumstances, I want to tell you that there is hope. I prayed for God’s strength and protection for you and your baby, and that this season will lead you to greater joy in the future. I am a mom of four, and I recognize that we can’t ever underestimate the value of a wife and the power of a mother’s love. If you have thoughts about hurting yourself, you should ask for help right away from your doctor, family, or a caring friend. While almost all new mothers experience some form of the "baby blues" after giving birth, this almost always disappear within the first two weeks. But sometimes this persists or gets worse, turning into postpartum depression. That's why it's important to watch for the warning signs. If you don’t know where to start, you can call one of Focus on the Family’s counselors. They are very caring and helpful who would be happy to chat with you over the phone, and perhaps offer you some referral in your area, at no cost. The phone number is 1-855-771-4357. Let us know how you're doing?

Quoting anonymom + 1.5:" oh mama   I think you need to talk to someone about feeling like this... Can you call your hubby? Have you talked to anyone about possible PPD?"

I called my husband and thankfully he came home early! <3
Who do I talk to? my OB or my daughter pedi or who?

My daughter is 3 weeks 1 day.
I think it may be PPD. I just feel like a failure if I admit it.
My Ob is a woman but her stupid ass clinic SUCKS. Everytime I try to make an appointment the nurse calls me back and basically tells me I'm fine and not to worry..

Quoting sol4J:" I am sorry that you are facing this time of uncertainty and pain. My heart goes out to you. But in the ... [snip!] ... perhaps offer you some referral in your area, at no cost. The phone number is 1-855-771-4357. Let us know how you're doing?"

Thank you so much. Your post brought tears to my eyes.
Its a strangers kindness that can make the biggest difference sometimes!
I have been talking to my husband and I will call that number!
I am doing slightly better today, I just feel so tired still..
Thank you, you will never know what that means to me!