Anxiety before testing?

Hubby and I made the decision to try but.. now that I'm a few days from testing.. I feel like I have a weight on my chest.

We've got a 4 year old and a 1 year old. and....I can't imagine 3.
I keep telling myself that nothing will be different.. and that it'll be easy.. but holy moly.. I'm nervous to test!!

I bawled when I got my positive with Raegan.. and.. with Luke, we were trying, I suspected I was pregnant but I was sooo nervous and I was a huge ball of emotions.

I know that if I am pregnant, and I test positive that everything will be alright. I've just got to get over this hurdle.. and anxiety.. and I'll be excited and comfortable.

Surely I'm not the only person who has had anxiety when ttc for another child.. and before testing?

Well, none of my pregnancies were planned so I definitely had anxiety before testing. I'm sure if we actually tried(especially since it would be pregnancy #6 and baby #4) I would have A LOT of anxiety.

Totally.

I am not good with change and even being excited about babies doesn't stop me from being terrified, lol