would be due date coming up?

I know everyones different but I guess im just looking for other people in my situation and maybe just a hope things will get better?
No judgement please..
I had a abortion in July, My fiance and I had just broke up when I found out I was expecting, and obviously financially I couldnt afford to be a single mom to a three yr old and then have a newborn as well...especially switching from two incomes to one and doing everything on my own..

Im having a really hard time dealing with my decision especially since the baby wasnt unwanted, just poor timing. Now that im approaching what my due date would be im getting really depressed and its constantly on my mind.
Just wondering if any other mamas are in my situation and have just any feedback from their situations and what they found helped them cope and just feeling better about things? I need to get out of this depression and be a better mom to my 3 yr old daughter.  

My friend felt this way after her abortion. She named her baby a gender neutral name and made a cake and wrote a letter to the child. She burnt it and buried the ashes as closure.

Quoting momma melissa85:" My friend felt this way after her abortion. She named her baby a gender neutral name and made a cake and wrote a letter to the child. She burnt it and buried the ashes as closure."

This.

My angel baby is named Taylor Lynn.. It is ok to cry. It is ok to feel off. It is ok, you have right of these feelings. <3