Not sure if this is the place to post this...but AF is two days late. I am scared to death I might be pregnant (this month we were tntc) I haven't tested and I'm not asking if I might be pregnant. I want honest opinions if I am pregnant.

Back story...DH and I have been trying for almost 5 years to have a successful and healthy pregnancy. But since Jan 10th I have been having mental health issues. I checked into a mental health facility on Jan 12th after trying twice to commit suicide on the 10th and 11th. I was released the 24th DH and I had sex that day. I was readmitted the 25th for over doasing. I was released the 28th then hospitalized again the 31st and released again on Feb 2nd. I have since quit drinking and am no longer suicidal. My question is if I am pregnant would you (in your opinion) continue the pregnancy or terminate it? According to my period tracker I was ovulating when DH and I had sex (I didn't intend on getting pregnant). We have had 3 stillborns (twins and a singleton) 7 m/c and one ectopic. I am so torn, I am testing tomorrow so will pretty much know for sure.

my main concern is what would another miscarriage do for your mental state of mind ... then again the same goes for an abortion.

Yeh what she said   I hope it's just from all the stress you've been through making it late...I know mine would be late if I burnt dinner sometimes LOL <3

youve been trying to conceive for 5 years and now that you might be you ask this? Are you willing to just try again?

Quoting Destiel:" my main concern is what would another miscarriage do for your mental state of mind ... then again the same goes for an abortion."

 

I honestly would keep it because you have been trying for so long, and if you were to terminate your mental health may go way down again.

BTW I would delete and repost in AS because that is protected.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Secret Service:</b>" youve been trying to conceive for 5 years and now that you might be you ask this? Are you willing to just try again?"</blockquote>




I don't want to bring a baby into an unstable environment.

Well, that's really a choice you and the baby's father have to make. But if my mental health was unstable[and it has been before] I would not have a baby. I would not even think about TTC until I felt okay for at least a year. The hormones really smurf with me. But that's just me. I have no idea about you, as I don't know you.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs. Reynolds:</b>" Yeh what she said   I hope it's just from all the stress you've been through making it late...I know mine would be late if I burnt dinner sometimes LOL <3"</blockquote>




I hope it's just stress too <3 I would eat your burnt dinner  

Quoting Marlee*TTC*:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Secret Service:</b>" youve been trying to conceive for 5 years ... [snip!] ... ask this? Are you willing to just try again?"</blockquote> I don't want to bring a baby into an unstable environment."

I understand that. What do you think you can handle easier though?

<blockquote><b>Quoting Secret Service:</b>" I understand that. What do you think you can handle easier though?"</blockquote>




I think it would be easier to have it, because the ectopic killed me to choose to kill my living baby with a strong heartbeat. I am just praying its stress.

I was wondering where you have been. How are things?

<blockquote><b>Quoting shelbylynn [32 WEEKS!]:</b>" I was wondering where you have been. How are things?"</blockquote>




Things are going better, I am in a Partial Hospitalization Program. I am not having the bad suicidal thoughts or drinking so things are going way better. Thank you for asking.

Quoting Marlee*TTC*:" <blockquote><b>Quoting shelbylynn [32 WEEKS!]:</b>" I was wondering where you have ... [snip!] ... Program. I am not having the bad suicidal thoughts or drinking so things are going way better. Thank you for asking."

I'm glad to hear that. Hope things continue this way.

I have been in your shoes before to an extent. I was almost hospitalized twice for suicide attempts. I suffer from depression on a daily basis sometimes to the point I just can't muster getting out of bed. But I will tell you that my babies have given me more strength and more purpose to fight my depression than anything else in the world. I don't know where I would be if not for them but I can bet you that it wouldn't be any place pretty. I am not saying by any means that your child will fix anything. I am just saying that for me the love I have for my children as given me more strength to work on fixing myself than anything else in this world. No matter what you decide to do good luck.