happiness for moms pregnancy after my loss

So my mom has been TTC for like 2 years now and she had taken the extra test to check herself after my freaky test. She started spotting and thought it was AF but all she did was spot. When I bought my digital test I bought a 2-pack, something I do out of habit and had one leftover after my positive and subsequent loss. Long story short she is pregnant. I am so happy for her I want another baby brother or sister, but I start crying every time I think about it or talk to her about it because of losing my baby. I know she is trying not to make me sad, but I feel like the smurffiest daughter in the world that instead of being overjoyed I happy but sad at the same time. I don't want to take away from this moment for her because I know she has waited and tried and never thought she would have another baby. How do I find peace enough to not bawl every time I try to talk to her about it.

Wow how old is your mom??

How old is your mom?

y mom is 33 I was adopted as a teen out of foster care but she is and will always be my only mom.

Quoting Nessa Grace:" y mom is 33 I was adopted as a teen out of foster care but she is and will always be my only mom."

oh okay.. was going to say that would be freaky. lol.

I think it's normal to feel the way you are feeling.. I got very angry/jealous when I saw people getting BFP's after my MC's.

<blockquote><b>Quoting My boys = My life:</b>" oh okay.. was going to say that would be freaky. lol. I think it's normal to feel the way you are feeling.. I got very angry/jealous when I saw people getting BFP's after my MC's."</blockquote>




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I just feel so selfish sometimes because I am taking the happy out of everything and this should be a very happy time for her I am hoping by getting my thoughts out on here maybe I can not let them out when I'm talking to my mom

It's hard. I had a MC about 3 years ago. A couple weeks afterward, my SIL found out she was pregnant. Her and my brother had been trying for so long. I was very happy for them. They almost didn't tell me at first because they knew it would be so hard for me, but my brother didn't want me to find out from someone else. I cried, but I explained to my brother that no matter what I was overjoyed for him. When I cried it wasn't because I was upset because that was happening for him. It was just hard to think about my baby. My nephew and my baby would be the same age. Every year I still think about that. Honey, it's natural and your mom knows that. She knows that you are happy for her. She knows that your tears are for what could have been. You are not a bad daughter for being sad about your loss.