ugh

I want to curl up in a hole and cry. I just want to be left alone even just for five minutes.
Noooot going to happen.
Today was my first day alone with my boys (16 months old and 2 weeks old) and while I love them both to death, I think my head is going to explode.
My oldest has always been high maintenance but since Ilias was born he has kicked it into overdrive nothing but constant attention makes him happy. But I cant bf my youngest and play with him at the same time so he sits and cries like hes dying. Wasnt so bad when I had my MIL here and my husband was on paternity leave so they could help... but its just me from now on...
I guess I just feel overwhelmed and frustrated. My heart breaks for Liam because I want to make him happy but its impossible. Anytime I pick up Ilias, its like his world is ending.
Please tell me this gets easier... lie if you have to.

Can you read to him while you bf?

Yes it gets easier. When my youngest was asleep I would spend most of the time with my two older one. When I had my first daughter and my son was only 14 month old, he wouldn't cry for attention he would play with his toys and when he wanted time with me i spent time with him. When I was alone with them both I would go crazy and be texting my DH when is it time for you to come home  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Nathaniel'sMom:</b>" Can you read to him while you bf?"</blockquote>




I tried reading to him and watching movies with him :/ hes so jealous of his brother he tries to push him off my lap then breaks down when I tell him not to hurt Ilias.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Momma Loves Her Boys:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Nathaniel'sMom:</b>" Can you read to him while you bf?"</blockquote> ... [snip!] ... with him :/ hes so jealous of his brother he tries to push him off my lap then breaks down when I tell him not to hurt Ilias."</blockquote>


Can you get him a baby doll and he can change his doll while you change your youngest? If you start getting him involved in taking care of your LO he may come around.

Change is hard, but you'll adapt.

At 2 it's time for him to start learning respect and what's okay behavior and what's not okay behavior.

Try to put emphasis on what things HE needs from you, and then put emphasis on what the BABY needs from you. And set up activities for him to do while you're breastfeeding, whether it's a coloring book and crayons set up, or little einsteins ready to hit play, play dough ready to be opened, etc.