my girl is such a fighter.

throughout my pregnancy i had a ton of issues, it was hard and i always told my ob about any problems i was having. on january 9 i started cramping which was normal for me but it continued late into the night and didnt stop but got worse. it wasnt regular so i figured they werent contractions, i wasnt having any kind of show so i figured it wasnt labor. but eventually it got to the point that i went to the hospital to see if there was anything at all they could do. (at this point my ob had told me i was 34 weeks along.) the nurses told me i wasnt in labor, ran a ffn and said i wasnt at risk for preterm labor. i said ok, now help me with these cramps. they started me on some iv fluids, and said maybe i was dehydrated and the fluids would help the cramping. fluids didnt work. so they gave me my first shot of (some medicine icant remember the name of but it started with a T and come to find out its to stop labor.) that didnt work. they waited and gave me 2 more of the same shots, and at that point i started getting scared.why would they be trying to stop labor if i wasnt in labor or even at risk?? at that point i asked my fiance to call my mom to come sit with me and by the time she got there they had started a magnesium drip. i was on that for 24 hours. i contracted the ENTIRE 24 hours, and for about the last 12-15 hours i was in so much pain i couldnt help but scream everytime a contraction started. my fiance and my mom stayed by my side the entire time. after 26 hours in the hospital they told me they were going to have to take her. i fought it but there was no point, my baby girl was coming i was already 5 cm dilated and she was breech so there was no option. my epidural didnt take quick enough so they put me to sleep. when i woke up i found my precious girl safe and sound in the nicu. the pediatrician said she was only 31 weeks old, there was no way she was 34 but she was doing great. they were preparing to send her to MUSC and have her on life support etc and when she came out she started crying with only a little help. she was 3 weeks old on thursday and she has done so well. im so proud of her. she has only had one backslide and the main thing she has to work on is learning to breathe. its so hard seeing my little girl in that stupid hospital every single day. i feel guilty that shes premature even though i did everything i could during my pregnancy. i just want her healthy enough to come home to her mommy and daddy, but right now im a heartbroken momma who wants nothing but the best for her little girl. i really could use some other preemie mommas to talk to that have either been there and done that or are going through it right now. message me, facebook me http://www.facebook.com/haileighelizabeth or text me 8432831062. im rarely at home to be on a computer so please dont be offended if i dont answer promptly. thanks for the support

I know the feeling. It is a long, lonely road. My DD was born at 32 weeks and spent almost 8 weeks in the hospital. 4 weeks at a hospital 2 hours away (I stayed the whole time and missed my husband and little boy) and then 3 weeks 6 days at a hospital only 1 hr away we drove back and forth daily. My DD is almost 5 months and the worries never stop. She is still on an apnea monitor at home and has feeding issues. Prayers helped a lot. The nurses become family and a shoulder to cry on. You will have good days and bad days. (they go along with your little girls when she has good days you will! When she has set backs and bad days so will you!)

Congrats on the birth of your little one, and hang in there. It IS a hard road. But your little girl needs your strength. Its ok to cry and have your moments too. I originally joined this site to talk to other NICU moms to help get me through. The ladies on here can be very supportive and informative. I'm sorry that you and her are going through this long struggle, but once you have her home and in your arms, it will all feel like some past bad dream. Feel free to PM me if you have any questions.