35 Weeks and Counting...
posted 2nd Feb
Last night I made a mad dash to the hospital, thinking FOR SURE Josie was coming. Got to the hospital, in the room, and they stopped. They checked me out, and I was 0 station, 1 cm dilated. They waited a little over an hour, checked me again, and I was 0 station, 1 cm, and 50% effaced. This is my 5th baby, I know my body: she is coming SOON! It may not be today or tomorrow, but I know it will be sometime in the next 2 weeks. How do I know? I don't know how to explain it, I just do. It's a feeling I have. Personally I will be surprised if she makes it another weeks. And yes, to all of you know it alls out there, yes I know that 37+ weeks is optimum time for baby to come. I'm not TRYING to have her. I'm trying to keep her in and have been for a while now, but I don't think she wants to cooperate. So please, no comments about "oh you need to wait it's not safe now blah blah blah" cuz trust me, I already know. Like I said, I'm not exactly a FTM. I'm doing all I can to not have her. I rest as much as I can and do as little house work as possible (which is driving me nuts btw), and I have been placed on strict pelvic rest so believe me, there's no fun going on for me right now! And also, I realize that a lot of you will say "oh 1 cm 50%? Yeah I've been like that for 3 weeks etc now so don't get your hopes up." You aren't me. You don't know my body, just like I don't know yours. I don't know how to explain how I know, I just KNOW that she will be coming soon. I am excited to meet her, but at the same time, I'm so scared that her lungs won't be strong enough and that she will have to stay in NICU for a while. All I can do at this point is pray, God has her in His capable hands and He knows better than I do!
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