Getting excited but scared!!!!!

im getting induced next fri feb 8th....i am so excited to meet my little girl..but i am so scared of the pain cause im gonna go drug free i have low blood platelets whatever that mean so i cant have the needle in my back its to dangerous but im getting induce cause i have GD and my high risk doctors dont let us go over 39 weeks. i have never carried this far and im so scared that she is going to be a big baby, my oldest was 6 lbs and he riped me this time if she rips me i will feel it all and its scary . my youngest son was only 4lbs 2oz born at 32 weeks due to my water breaking and scared of infections . i had pain meds but it wore off before birth but it was bad cause he was small. just venting trying to get my stress off before next fri ....

  that's James Deans birthday!!


Ehhh when I went with no pain meds, I didn't feel anything down there tearing lol, it was actually a relief to push...
and he was my biggest baby, 7lbs 11ozs 19in

Dean was 4lbs 15ozs, and Jade was 5lbs 10ozs both 17in long

hey think i will have a fast labor cause im already 3 n half cm 70% efaced n her head is all the way down so maybe by 9 or 10 am on the 8th she will be here... they will start me on pitocin at 5am when i come in and at 630-7 when my midwife dose rounds she will come in and break my water