Quoting Cnkeyue1089:" I know how u feel. My sister had the same due date as me when I was pregnant with my angel baby. When ... [snip!] ... she was born and maybe once or twice after that. It was too hard for me. All i could think was that my baby should be here too."
I'm sorry for your loss, too.
I had a chemical pregnancy about 15 yrs ago (I don't count it in my number of losses... I don't know why, but I just prefer not to go there). I found out a couple of days before I lost, so I wasn't emotionally invested, per se, but it was the aftermath that was hard. The "what ifs." I never told anyone about it, not even my boyfriend at the time. My cousin got pregnant around the same time. She didn't even want the baby. When the baby was born, I found it really hard to hold her or bond with her. Then, at 3wks old, her mom left her with me for the night. I just sat in the rocking chair most of the time, in the dark, singing her songs and crying for my "what if baby." A week later, my cousin left her with my mom & I moved back home to help raise her for the next 7 yrs (until her mom decided she suddenly wanted her & fought for custody). Long, horrible story. But, today, this sweet girl is 15 and just a lovely person. And I feel like I got my chance to help raise her to be that person. It was therapeutic for getting through that loss.