Since having my daughter I have realized I needed to start getting my life together and one big problem I have is my mental health; I am not really sure what is wrong with me and I am wondering what to do. I have talked to my doctor depression I went through during my pregnancy but I just wanted to get some other people's advice- people who don't have any standing in my life I guess, and see if I am not just imagining that their is a problem.
I have always felt like their is something wrong with me since I can remember. I have had drinking problems and drug problems - I stopped the drugs before I got to bad in them and the drinking I do rarely because when I drink I can either be really wild or really angry depending on the situation. I have times when I can be full of energy and happy and then in the same day I can get depressed and angry (turning angry at the snap of fingers). My thoughts move really quickly in my head as well and more then recently it feels like I will never get away from these feelings and it makes me want to cry.
I just want to start getting better but I think I am also scared to ask for help. What if there is something wrong and they have to put me on medications? Will I loose the person I am?