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Hello . I'm Carly . Today is January 30 , 2013 . i'll be 17 in 6 days , and i find out the gender of my baby in 5 .. Im 20 weeks and 5 days pregnant with a bi-racial baby . My boyfriend is 21 years old , and black , and before i got pregnant , my important family members ( grandmother , great--grandmother , mother , stepdad ) i let know he was black because it wasn't like me to date outside of my own race . I never had anything against it , i was just not attracted to anyone that wasn't in my race . He asked me out , i figured he was a good guy , and then we fell in love <3
8 months down the road , i get pregnant with his young due to anitbiotics cancelling out my birthcontrol , shortly after i had my wisdom teeth taken out back in September . . We're doing WONDERFUL . We honestly never argue , he treats me how a woman should be treated . It took someone of the opposite race to show me how it is to be truely loved , and not do me wrong . At first my mother and grandmother was mad about what my babies skin color would be , but only because they know that living in Alabama , the South , it's very frowned apon , and they don't want people talking about me , or treating me any different , they really are veryyy defensive towards me . The ONLY 2 people in my family that has a problem with , and dropped me because of it , it is my moms brother , and my moms father . I am not close to neither of them so it honestly doesn't effect me , but when my uncle says his 2 daughters cannot be around my boyfriend , and he calls me the names he does , it makes me mad . Everyone in my family is excited for me , even though my age and my babies race , they seen past it and said they're going to love my " chocolate covered peanut " ! I have honestly never seen an ugly mixed baby . I need many prayers if you would , this hasn't been easy for me .. Stress is eating at me , and depression . I constantly worry because my mom and stepdad aren't doing good , he's the only father i've had since i was 10 , and they are falling apart . He's turned to popping Zanex and drinking alot , i was living with my grandmother until i found out i was pregnant because she has custody of me , and has since i was 5 , and i moved back in with my mom and stepdads because i want my mother to be in my babys life , since she wasn't in mine much . Currently i am staying with my grandmother as well as my mom , with all my belongings at my moms , because my stepfather got arrest for a DUI and took a bunch of Zanex .. He normally isn't like this . He just turned to alcohol and drugs in the past year .. i just don't want to put myself , or my baby in danger .. People constantly tell me to give my baby up for adoption because my life is over and noone is going to ever love me if something happens to me and my boyfriend because of my babies race , funny thing is , NOONE THAT HAS TOLD ME THAT IS MY FAMILY ! I want to be a wonderful mother to my baby , and i believe i will because how i had to grow up , and how unfair my life was .
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