repressed memories

So lately the past few months I've started remembering things that I jad completely forgotten/blocked out. Some of the things im starting to remember are making me hate myself. How is it possible to block something out that is such a huge event? Has this happened to anyone else? What triggered it? Im going to make an appointment soon to see someone cause I can't deal with this. I don't wanna talk to my regular counselor, im just not comfortable with it. This really is starting to get the best of me.

Quoting KelseyLynn:" So lately the past few months I've started remembering things that I jad completely forgotten/blocked ... [snip!] ... I don't wanna talk to my regular counselor, im just not comfortable with it. This really is starting to get the best of me."

**hugs**

I think it's your minds way of protecting you.

I have something BIG that I know happened.... I know what happened, but I just can't rememeber it happening.. if that makes sence? I know my mind has blocked it out and I thank it very much for that. lol. I just wish it would block out the few years that came after it too.

xx

Oh Hun I'm sorry.
The brain shuts down through self preservation. It happens.
I've had it happen re memories from a part of my childhood.

X

<blockquote><b>Quoting Dexter's Mummy!:</b>" **hugs** I think it's your minds way of protecting you. I have something BIG that I know happened.... ... [snip!] ... it out and I thank it very much for that. lol. I just wish it would block out the few years that came after it too. xx"</blockquote>




Yeah that make sense. A friend of mine said the reason I could be remembering it now is because I need to keep my daughter away from that situation. Idk its kinda crazy. Im glad I remembed it but then I'm not :/

<blockquote><b>Quoting THE KATIE PRICE:</b>" Oh Hun I'm sorry. The brain shuts down through self preservation. It happens. I've had it happen re memories from a part of my childhood. X"</blockquote>




I never really thought stuff like that happened. I thought it was jusr stuff you saw on tv or in movies. Boy was I wrong. It makes me question what else I've blocked out.

Quoting KelseyLynn:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Dexter's Mummy!:</b>" **hugs** I think it's your minds way ... [snip!] ... is because I need to keep my daughter away from that situation. Idk its kinda crazy. Im glad I remembed it but then I'm not :/"

yea, maybe it's time to deal with it yourself so you can protect your baby girl?
Good luck with Sorting it all out darlin!   xxx

<blockquote><b>Quoting Dexter's Mummy!:</b>" yea, maybe it's time to deal with it yourself so you can protect your baby girl? Good luck with Sorting it all out darlin!   xxx"</blockquote>




Thanks hun  

<blockquote><b>Quoting KelseyLynn:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting THE KATIE PRICE:</b>" Oh Hun I'm sorry. The brain shuts down ... [snip!] ... I thought it was jusr stuff you saw on tv or in movies. Boy was I wrong. It makes me question what else I've blocked out."</blockquote>




No it's self preservation. The memories returned in part when I was ready to cope and very much move forward.

<blockquote><b>Quoting THE KATIE PRICE:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting KelseyLynn:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting THE KATIE ... [snip!] ... No it's self preservation. The memories returned in part when I was ready to cope and very much move forward."</blockquote>




That makes sense.

I have this too. I'm remembering little bits and pieces now as i also need to protect my child. It's very hard going, it's a part of my daily life having flashbacks and panic attacks and being physically ill because of it. It's hard to be a single mama dealing with this crap, but it's going through court so there's no escaping what happened. Knowing my child is at risk of the same stuff is terrifying, i'm getting very frustrated with myself for not being able to remember more. It's mentally and emotionally draining.

I did this for over a year to myself. I honestly wouldn't allow myself to accept something horrible that had happened in my life. I was having break downs and in a deep depression, and wasn't sure why. I finally got an overwhelming flash of reality we'll call it, I broke down and talked to someone, finally accepted what had happend. It is still something I struggle w ith, but not holding it in has helped wonders. Best of luck, it is very important to talk to someone. Sometimes I vent on here just to get it out..