I hate my brain.

I keep having terrible unwanted untrue thoughts that won't go away for long.   I just want them to go away.

wellbutrin is supposed to be good for that!!

I get that too where u think of something horrible and then go wtf why am i thinkin this ...I hate it and wish I could smurf it off forever

sounds like OCD.
have you always had 'em? or some form of them? (just varying thoughts)
like- are you actively trying to push 'em outta your head with reason but your mind just won't let you?
i have this issue.

they say if you try not to think about something you will think about it more.

the key is to let the thought pass through your mind and look at it recognize it and then let it go...

Quoting Mommy of 1 1/2  :" I get that too where u think of something horrible and then go wtf why am i thinkin this ...I hate it and wish I could smurf it off forever"

y yeah. then obsessing about it trying to prove to my brain that the thoughts are untrue and it just goeson and on. and I'm like what the Smurf

<blockquote><b>Quoting Sam Winchester:</b>" y yeah. then obsessing about it trying to prove to my brain that the thoughts are untrue and it just goeson and on. and I'm like what the Smurf"</blockquote>



Yup. You get one thought then say t untrue then another one comes and ugh j hate when it happens ....I honestly fight my brain for it to stop or distract myself with a movie or game or something

I have the same issue sometimes  

<blockquote><b>Quoting KNZ.:</b>" sounds like OCD. have you always had 'em? or some form of them? (just varying thoughts) like- are you ... [snip!] ... like- are you actively trying to push 'em outta your head with reason but your mind just won't let you? i have this issue. "</blockquote>




This. Definitely sounds like OCD. I have a good friend who does exactly what you're describing. Medicine has helped her SO much.

Quoting Killingℬird(6w):" <blockquote><b>Quoting KNZ.:</b>" sounds like OCD. have you always had 'em? or some ... [snip!] ... Definitely sounds like OCD. I have a good friend who does exactly what you're describing. Medicine has helped her SO much."

i've had therapy for it but never medicated.
mine's bad though.

over the years i've been able to make it go from all day/night thinking about it, to only having trigger places.

like right now, the bathroom, and getting outta the car. which sucks-- being pregnant, peeing all the time with kids to drive places haha
(they aren't related to these tasks, it's just kinda how it ended up)

And though it keeps me in the bathroom like, 5 minutes instead of 30 seconds.
it's a fair trade for thinking about it constantly.

<blockquote><b>Quoting KNZ.:</b>" i've had therapy for it but never medicated. mine's bad though. over the years i've been able to ... [snip!] ... though it keeps me in the bathroom like, 5 minutes instead of 30 seconds. it's a fair trade for thinking about it constantly. "</blockquote>




My friend has it bad too. She's never told me what the thoughts were because she's so terrified of them. She's says they're just so out there and ridiculous but they scare her so bad. You'd never know it if she didn't tell you though since she's been on the meds. I'm not quite sure what she takes though.

Quoting Killingℬird(6w):" <blockquote><b>Quoting KNZ.:</b>" i've had therapy for it but never medicated. mine's ... [snip!] ... bad. You'd never know it if she didn't tell you though since she's been on the meds. I'm not quite sure what she takes though."

mine aren't even "scary". just disturbing/unwanted.

i wonder what it is. i considered it for a bit, but like, i don't even take tylenol 'n such hahah.
plus, i've always been kinda scared about what life with out 'em would be like, as odd as that sounds.

i'm glad your friend found a way to get her brain back!

Quoting Killingℬird(6w):" <blockquote><b>Quoting KNZ.:</b>" i've had therapy for it but never medicated. mine's ... [snip!] ... bad. You'd never know it if she didn't tell you though since she's been on the meds. I'm not quite sure what she takes though."

Yeah. Mine were triggered by a post on here and it was a chain of paranoia that morphed into thoughts tbat are terrible.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Sam Winchester:</b>" Yeah. Mine were triggered by a post on here and it was a chain of paranoia that morphed into thoughts tbat are terrible. "</blockquote>




You should try to contact a dr.
I've never dealt with it personally, but I know it must be hard to live with just by the way my friend gets when she tries to explain it to me.

<blockquote><b>Quoting KNZ.:</b>" mine aren't even "scary". just disturbing/unwanted. i wonder what it is. i considered it for a bit, ... [snip!] ... about what life with out 'em would be like, as odd as that sounds. i'm glad your friend found a way to get her brain back! "</blockquote>




That last sentence gave me chills. It's so upsetting when she talks to me about it because I can see how scared/disturbed it makes her feel. Like she's lost control of her brain.