do you ever feel.....

Like you just want to stay in bed and do nothing, think nothing, feel nothing for a whole day?! I have been completely overwhelmed and stressed lately. On Dec 15th my mother in law passed away. She was like my mom, we were close. I had a baby on Jan7th. I homeschool both my older kids and due to the above they got behind. I have had to rush and work from morn until dinner time to get them done on time. I have been dealing with a medical review for my daughters SSI disability case. I am doing it all on my own. Cooking cleaning, schooling shopping, phone calls, bills, EVERYTHING! I am also EBF my baby. it's constant!!! Now I am having problems in my marriage on top of all this other stuff. I find myself lashing out in anger at my kids, don't worry not hurting them or having any thoughts to hurt them. Just yelling and snapping. I have been swearing way more than normal too. I never swear at my kids. But lately I have. I am just so irritable. I just want a day or even an hour with nothing and nobody but me to worry about!!!! Should I be concerned about PPD or is it just life's stresses getting to me? I hate that I feel this way and I hate even more that I am yelling at my kids. And no I cant get a break. I have no choice right now. I have no family, no friends, cant afford a baby sitter. Should I call my doctor? I really don't want to take meds if I can avoid it...

It's probably just being depressed in general, with baby blues on top of it.

I was very depressed after #2, due to some tramatic events that happened right when he was born. I went on antidepressants for a couple of months. I figured it was better to do that the. Be miserable & not a good mom, partner.

Maybe I should call the doc..... but with everything going on right now I don't really see any way around feeling like I do. I feel like it's hopeless and that no amount of meds is going to take my pain away. I was doing ok, yes I was a little cranky but it was understandable. Now with the marital issues I am devastated, lost confused. It's a long story but basically I discovered recently that DH at the very least attempted to cheat on me 4 years ago. This is in combination with ongoing issues regarding porn, lying, hiding and broken promises. I have been dealing with this with him for far too long. I just don't know what to do........