Quoting Mom of Tristan/Rayah +1:" Ignore his ass when he gets home. Men are so sucky when it comes to sleep deprivation or Anythjng like ... [snip!] ... sure all men are like this in one way or another. Just start being that bitch as you have the rights to be upset as well."
Thankfully, he won't let me so much as touch his laundry, lol. Except in the extreme case where he's working too much to do it himself. he works an evening job at Walmart and he's a substitute teacher. This week he actually subs everyday so he will be tired (it's only monday and he's already being an ass though) so he will be pressed for time.
After 10 years of this, I just feel fed up at times and just want to take my kids, walk out that door, and never look back. I know I won't, but boy it can be tempting at times. But, right now, I would literally have to walk, lol, seeing as he has my truck and his car is out of commission. It sucks being poor. Having to swallow my pride, apply for food stamps, never knowing if we'll be able to fix what needs to be fixed. Living in an old house that is just too small. It gets to me after a while. I feel kinda trapped, and I don't know, maybe I'm having my own almost mid life crisis here, but I feel stuck. I can't find enough funding to finish school, so at the rate I'm going, I'll be a SAHM till my kids are grown, never be a teacher, and essentially do nothing with my life. Why does college have to be so damned expensive anyway. I need to work towards my bachelor's which requires a 4 year college, and the price difference between community college and a university is just too much right now on our limited income. Financial aid is not enough, and I don't fully understand scholarships, nevermind the fact that I can barely leave the house. Sometimes I wish we didn't live on the farm and just lived in town so I could actually get out of the house, lol.
You can probably tell a lot has been building for a while, I'm not really the type who speaks of my 'dirty laundry' to others, but a girl has to let it out sometime. hehe